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Dissociation
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Lately dissociation has been my normal resting state. It’s more depersonalizing but also some derealization.
If I can get engaged enough with other people I can pull out of it- but I still tend to forget so much from that conversation. Even the people I feel safer with.
If I am alone I struggle so much to get myself to engage with my environment. Time just passes. When I try to do something it doesn’t really work. I guess my body is kind of numb. Tasks get messed up, I drop things, brain fog makes it hard to stay focused enough to keep fixing the mistakes and I just want to be able to do things things. It feels really sad that this is how so much of my life is. I have good support so I’m extremely lucky. And I’m going to be trying emdr again (I have had a hard time with it because of my symptoms), so I keep hoping this is going to help.
It’s been really confusing and debilitating to my functional living. My memory is so impaired. Everything is so different from how I used to function. Anyways- if anyone has any ideas or can relate- I’d appreciate it.
Thanks!
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