Dissociative Disorders

Today was strange.
I was dissociating for 4 hours straights and am still a little foggy.
I was frozen and fell asleep for two hours (with waking again while being frozen).
Then I was frozen in episodes that started and ended while derealising and depersonalising.
It was really strange.
My legs were frozen in the same position for over an hour.
In the end I asked for help from my mom who helped me get up and move again.
By the time I was crying as I couldn’t move on my own or speak to explain myself.
She helped me move up and
Over time movement and feeling came again

Now I am just exhausted.

This time it was triggered by an fried of mine who stayed over and the fear of the clinic.

I realised now that the clinic itself is specialised in my condition called Functional Neurological Disorder (Or older name Conversion Disorder).

That is such a win. Still I’m nervous about all the people and so on.
Hope it will all work out.

Also here’s an website for anyone who‘s interested in the condition.

neurosymptoms.org/en

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When you’ve lived through pain, your mind can get stuck replaying old moments.

Old mistakes.

Old losses.

Old identities.

Depression often pulls you backward, convincing you that the past defines you — that what happened then is who you still are now.

But the past only has power when we keep feeding it.

When we carry yesterday’s wounds into today, we block ourselves from healing, from opportunity, from becoming someone new.

Let the past be a chapter, not a prison.

You deserve a life that isn’t decided by old pain, old stories, or old versions of you.

Today isn’t asking you to rewrite everything.

It’s simply asking you to show up.

To breathe.

To take one step forward — no matter how small.

Your future isn’t built from what happened yesterday.

It starts with what you choose right now.

What small choice will you make today that your future self will thank you for?

Also, if you're going through a tough time right now, I want you to know that I post daily mental health videos about how to deal with painful thoughts. So if you or anyone you know is struggling and wants help, click on one of the links below or write me if you have any questions you want me to answer

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My day started with a freezing episode.
(Triggered by the fear of the MRI-Scan, I’m mostly afraid of getting overwhelmed by the noise.)

This time my whole head was hurting.
Especially some facial muscle around my nose was cramping for two hours.
My neck still hurts, four hours afterwards…

I talked with ChatGTP about it.
All in all my episodes are getting better even though the pain is more intense…
Someday it’like plaing a stop and go game, some days everything is frozen except for my right hand, then again Im completely paralysed.
ChatGTP said this means that my brain is slowly learning to let go.
As Im on the waiting list of a psychosomatic clinic I will be there in January.
ChatGTP said it would be realistic to say that after six weeks in the clinic and two weeks at home I should be nearly normal, wich means March /April.

I read many posts about people who have the disorder and most of them battle with it for years.

Its been four months now and I would need to hold on another four to five months.

I really hope it will settle someday, as I can’t go on like this…

I don’t have any energy left for this.

I want my life back...

Now I can’t even get a job because I can’t trust my body to not freeze up…

Orginally I wanted to study psychology and prepare myself for the entrance exam.
Wich would happen in May.
But right now I’m not trusting myself with this.
Like my Depression made it so hard to concentrate that I gave up studying…
So I guess I need to wait another year.
Once again I’m unsure of what to do…

And I know things will get better someday but it’s just so hard to keep hoping when my current situation is so difficult.

Update: The first mental health clinic I applied to called today. I‘m going next Thursday! :)
Hope it will all go well!

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When you’re struggling, it’s easy to look at how far you have to go — and it feels impossible.
You start thinking about all the habits you need to build, all the pain you have to heal, all the changes you should make.

But recovery doesn’t happen all at once.


It happens one moment at a time.


One breath.


One small act of courage.


No matter how long your journey seems, this moment — right now — is the only one that truly matters.
And if you can take care of this moment, the rest will take care of itself.


👉 What’s one small step you can take right now to move forward?

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Many people think meditation means sitting still and trying to clear your mind.

But that’s not what it is.

Meditation isn’t about silence. It’s about awareness.

It’s noticing your thoughts instead of drowning in them.

It’s learning to see what’s happening inside you without judgment or resistance.

When you’re struggling with depression, your mind can feel like a storm. It’s loud, chaotic, and never-ending.

Meditation doesn’t make the storm disappear. It helps you realize you’re not the storm. You’re the one watching it.

And from that awareness comes something powerful: clarity, calm, and the understanding that you don’t need to control everything to be okay.

Have you ever tried meditating when your thoughts felt too heavy? What happened?

Also, if you're going through a tough time right now, I want you to know that I post daily mental health videos about how to deal with painful thoughts. So if you or anyone you know is struggling and wants help, click on one of the links below or write me if you have any questions you want me to answer:

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Today it happened again.

I was going home from therapy and many factors lead to the next paralysis episode in public.
I was in luck that I had informed my mother so she could pick me up.

I’m experienced with the whole process and the pain that comes with it, so it’s not that scary.
What terrifies me about ”freezing up“ in public are the people.
I can’t tell them that this is my new ”normal“ for me… I can’t react to their prying eyes, answer their questions or tell them that it will go away with time. I can’t stop them from calling ambulance or tell them that it’s not an epileptic seizure.
I can’t stop them from coming to close or touching me.
I’m totally helpless.

So I got home alright, my mom found me and helped me walk.
But still…
Everything tensed up, my hand turned blue.
My left arm is always cramping more than the right. I’m not sure why.
My muscles are still tensed and sore and I have a big tension headache.

This Friday I have an appointment with an neurologist, to rule out epilepsy.

I’m 99% sure it’s just psychosomatic as I can still understand everything that’s happening around me and it’s always triggered by emotional overwhelm.

It’s ”just“ a dissociation motor disorder…
Still this is scary.

And the biggest problem for me is not knowing how long this will last.
There are not enough studies about the disorder.
It can last between weeks or even years.
I’ve had it for nearly 4 months now…

And it’s getting exhausting.

Hopefully the mental health clinic can help with it all…

I just need to hold on.

Update: I still have a tension headache a day later and my muscles are sore.

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Everyone will have a different version of you in their mind.
To some, you’ll be brave.
To others, too emotional.
To one person, kind.
To another, selfish.

The truth is — no one sees you as you truly are.
They see you through the filter of their own pain, their own fears, their own expectations.

When you live for approval, you become a reflection of what everyone else wants — and lose sight of what you need.
But when you live by what feels true to your heart, you begin to recover a kind of peace that no opinion can touch.

Depression thrives on self-judgment.
Freedom begins when you stop asking, “What will they think?” and start asking, “What feels right for me?”

Also, if you're going through a tough time right now, I want you to know that I post daily mental health videos about how to deal with painful thoughts. So if you or anyone you know is struggling and wants help, click on one of the links below or write me if you have any questions you want me to answer:

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Your mind is wired to notice what’s missing.

It scans for what could be better, what you haven’t achieved yet, what you still need to fix.

But gratitude interrupts that cycle.

When you slow down and acknowledge what’s already here — the people who care about you, the roof over your head, the moments of laughter, even your breath — you remind your mind that you already have more than enough.

Abundance doesn’t begin with more money, more success, or more things.

It begins when you stop searching for “more” and start noticing what’s already good.

That awareness shifts everything — because the moment you feel grateful, you are no longer lacking.

What’s one thing you’re grateful for today that you usually overlook?

Also, if you're going through a tough time right now, I want you to know that I post daily mental health videos about how to deal with painful thoughts. So if you or anyone you know is struggling and wants help, click on one of the links below or write me if you have any questions you want me to answer:

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⚠️I just ”unfroze“ and my mind is still a mess. But I wanted to get it out in writing so read at your own caution. ⚠️

Hey there guys,

thanks for all the encouragement! I really appreciated it. You all really helped me ❤️

Today was a rollercoaster for me.

I finally got diagnosed!!! Yey!
My Depression is finally official.
I’m moderately depressed so it’s a bit better!
Dissociative motor disorder (the freezing and cramping episodes).
And a traumatic disorder without any further specifics (because I don’t have intense visual flashbacks and intense avoidance… I push myself through the worst of it…)

And I could get an neurological appointment for next week! Yey.

So hopefully I can soon get the help I need.

Because these freezing episodes are creepy and the cramping is painful….

Also I got a reply from the mental health clinic I applied to.
I need to wait 10 to 12 weeks….

My social anxiety is acting up again and all the appointments really freaked me out - but I got through them! Yey!

I’m gonna try and work or something to get through the waiting… I’m not quite sure how though.
Like I want to work at a local flower shop but I’m not sure if I can face customers…
And I can’t work much so maybe 20 hours a week.

And shoutout to @mrspudniks ! ✨

He helped me get through my paralysing episodes, we now call ”becoming a frozen vegetable“. Because I’m frozen and can’t move the tiniest muscle, like a stiff carrot. Afterwards I unfreeze and my brain is all sludgy/foggy.

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The hardest part of being human isn’t surviving pain, it’s staying kind and open-hearted while you do.

When you witness cruelty, injustice, or ignorance, your mind wants to fight, to fix, to carry it all.

But if you let that weight settle inside you, it will dim your light.

Staying peaceful in a world that often isn’t doesn’t mean ignoring what’s wrong. It means learning to meet it with awareness instead of anger. To act from clarity, not chaos.

You don’t heal the world by letting it break you. You heal it by becoming the calm within it; the light that doesn’t go out.

What helps you stay grounded when everything feels too heavy?

Also, if you're going through a tough time right now, I want you to know that I post daily mental health videos about how to deal with painful thoughts. So if you or anyone you know is struggling and wants help, click on one of the links below or write me if you have any questions you want me to answer:

www.instagram.com/thomas_of_copenhagen

www.tiktok.com/@thomas_of_copenhagen

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