I was feeling very little and made some potato smilies and some toaster scrambles for lunch. I dipped them in dill pickle hummus. It was nummy.
My vision is really bothering me. My eyes keep going into double vision and it takes conscious effort to refocus. It's a lot of strain on my eyes. They're very sore. Just 2 and a half weeks till I see the surgeon. I can handle the wait, I've been dealing with the double vision for about 2 years now.
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I can feel the sad emotions welling up inside.
I was sitting sniffling and fighting back tears and pauley asked what was wrong. I just kinda unleashed all my sadness and told her I'm not sure how much longer I can keep this up. She asked how she could help and all I could think was maybe a bottle of juice. But then I remembered I have canned bubble tea. So I have a can of honeydew flavor bubble tea. And she heated up a cheese stick for me.
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Transportation was seamless. Got us there about a half hour early. We took the elevator to the 3rd floor and the receptionist asked how she could help me. I said "hi, I have a date with the octopus at 230" and she said we needed to go down to the 2nd floor. So we went down and there was just an elderly lady sitting behind desk. She had a mostly shaved head except for a dark blue poof of hair. She was very nice.
We sat and waited to be called back for the test. While I waited my neuro-ophthalmologists nurse walked down the hall and stopped when she saw us. She smiled from ear to ear and said oh HI Nox and pauley! So we chatted for a few minutes. I mentioned I'm concerned about the exotropia being the cause of my migraine and she said it's very likely. It was nice to see her.
Then we got called back. Now I need to point out id been there for testing over 7 years ago. The doc who took me back was the same as the last time. She took one look at me and said "I remember you!' and she was really nice. We talked about how just over a week ago I was diagnosed with exotropia and how I'm seeing the surgeon next month.
The test was easy. Stare at the dot, click every time I see a dot of light on the sides. I think I did pretty well. I'll find out soon. I experienced some monocular diplopia with my right eye.
When we were done I called my insurance company to activate the will call. They ordered a Lyft and it only took 5 minutes. The drive home was crazy cuz traffic sucks. But as soon as I got home I made a sandwich cuz I hadn't eaten yet. Whoops
I'm really craving coffee. Oh! The company I get my coffee from launched their 4 spring flavors today and they're having a 24 hour 25 percent off sale. I checked them out and got excited about the French vanilla lavender flavor coffee so I ordered a bag. After delivery fee and discount it was $16.16 for a 12 oz bag. The sale is good on everything they sell.
Today has been a pretty good day so far. Pauley just put on the electric kettle so I can make a bottle of IQ Joe. I'm gonna order some cappuccino powder tonight.
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We're getting picked up at 115pm so I'm gonna shower at noon. We don't know how long the appointment will be so I've got will call for transportation. This should be relatively easy unless my double vision makes it hard. Fingers crossed. Wish me luck.
When I talk to people in pti cant look them in the face. But when I talk to my therapist over telehealth I always have my right eye closed and I've read that's common in people who have exotropia. But I can't find any info about not being able to have face to face communication. I'll message my old doctor, he'll be fascinated.
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