Been absent from here the past few weeks. Everything's seeming more and more unmanageable with my #fibromylagia . I'm doing good with asking for help, getting enough sleep and not over working myself to a flare up. But I can't deny this is getting more difficult on my own. I'm constantly exhausted, I feel like I've not had rest in weeks now but it's fatigue not sleep disturbance. Every single day is a massive chore just to take care of myself in the most basic of ways and my mental health is beginning to suffer because of it.
Self care is the main thing that keeps me in recovery and not in relapse. But I don't have the time because I'm constantly totally exhausted and I have my puppy to care for. Yesterday I just cried, the world was falling down in front of my eyes and all I could do was rest and watch as it happened. My #BipolarDisorder is starting to swing and that's aggravating my #EatingDisorders , I feel very triggered right now.
But all I can do is just keep going, I know I'll push through today like I do every other. I am drained, I'm in pain and I need to sort out my head and my meals. I know I need help but I don't know what with exactly; first thing you get asked is by anyone is what you need help with. I don't have the answers to that yet.
I just know if I don't want to relapse, I can't keep having the weight of all this on my shoulders ✨