hearmeout

It’s not that i feel bad about myself. At least so far I have not. Yet i struggle with severe depression and anxiety. Its not me but my circumstances that has driven me to complete despair and despondence. I have failed in my relationships and I have failed professionally. But i tried my best... to do whatever i did with sincerity and integrity. I was of course not perfect. I did horrible things too by my own reckoning. But being subjected to such horrors and so repeatedly does not seem fair..! fate has served me a very cruel and sadistic hand. I wonder at how I got led, conned, humiliated and pushed around by so many... and i see so ordinary and mediocre who have inflicted horrors on people doing so well. I don’t grudge their good luck but did I wreak such a havoc or horror of a Hitler or a Mao to face such misery? I feel so cheated by everyone I trusted...my spouse, my guru, my friends and why ...God too! Today i have none left other than my counselor and psychiatrist and i need medication to survive and remain functional. I come here and share my hopeless situation. people and society at large around me seem so redundant...I don’t have any even to fake any empathy or sympathy. I exist as a destitute. But what if somewhere i’m so deeply flawed and therefore none are surprised and it’s just me and my shit to deal with? I post in the mighty without the fear of being judged and sermonized...#hearmeout #suicidal #Loneliness #Anxiety

Comment down your list. Here is of mine :
I AM NOT : Broken , Unloved,Weak, Lazy, Powerless , Forgotable, Stupid!
I AM : Loved , Hardworker, Strong , Kind, Can do anything, Friendly, Thouhtful and worthy !

#list #MentalHealth #Powerful #Autism #hearmeout #hearmeout

HOPE.

please the photo with an open heart.
I’m not here to boast about my achievements or judge and correct anyone’s journey.
I’m here in hopes you realize in your deepest pits of sorrow
you are not alone

I will always outreach my hand in support of anyone with a grieving heavy heart.
you have hope.
big or barely noticeable
you have hope.

my hope has been restored
my heart full of compassion, love and silent confidence
and no matter when you start
even if you fail
or Chose to fail everyday
as long as you truly want change and happiness
there is a way.

I am home I am the me I always loved and knew. who are you?