iamsohopeless

#Anxiety #Idontknowwhattodo #iamsohopeless

I don’t know if I can take anymore diagnosis and no relief in sight. I’m too young for back surgery (though I desperately need it), I’m not sick enough for transfusion therapy ( though it’s what they tell me I need), my migraines are constant and everyday with which NOTHING works on so they are wanting to try an experimental polypeptide infusion an if that doesn’t work I HAVE no choice but to get brain surgery to fix my Chiari Malformation, remove my cavernoma, and hopefully check my DVA that caused micro hemorrhages. I never sleep, my body hurts constantly and I have yet to find a medication or regimen that helps therefore I was recently put on MMJ and am awaiting my pharmacist appointment to pick it up or I’m literally out of options.
I honestly don’t think I can take anymore. #iamsohopeless #Sadness