I speak with Nichole Howson about living for many years with undiagnosed bipolar disorder. She discusses how this negatively impacted her life. She was finally diagnosed after scary circumstances. Nichole discusses how finally getting an accurate diagnosis transformed her life.
Listen to the interview here- accordingtodes.com/77
#BipolarDisorder #Undiagnosed #diagnosed #MentalHealth #Diagnosis #Podcast #lifechanging
Mochi is my ESA and soon to be AKC-certified Service Dog. He will be one on 11/23. Mochi had changed my life! He reminds me to be present, gives me all of the love, and is one of my primary responsibilities. I love him so much, it hurts (in a good way)! #lifechanging #StarWars #MyYoda
I turned 22 yesturday.. I shouldn't be here.. I should be out in the world traveling, enjoying my life like every other 22 year old. Instead I'm trapped in this fucking hole that sinks further and further down and I can't get out of it..hell I can't even stand on my legs..I'm tired and exhausted all the time. I'm so deeply tired of being stuck like this..one day I woke up and suddenly couldn't swim anymore or run or walk or even walk down the stairs in my apartment to get my mail..
I see people I used to know living, traveling, working and I can't do either. All I can do is watch other people live their life.. trying to be supportive while my friends, family and even boyfriend moves on in their life.. their life goes on, sure they all have their ups and downs... but overall it's good. I would love to be like them.. getting home tired from a day at work.. complaining about coworkers or stupid bosses or costumers.. or that my foot hurts because I've been standing and running at work all day or maybe I ran into something.. instead I sit at home watching some stupid movie or some show to try to forget my life for a moment or I go to bed to take a nap because making breakfast was exhausting. The only time I walk outside my door is when I have a doctors appointment.. I only go out when I have to.
Everything takes so much energy and people around me doesn't seem to understand.. how I have to be looked in my apartment doing nothing for a week so that I can attend a wedding I was invited to.. or that I have to lie in bed for more than a week to recover from that wedding because I'm so tired from it that I can't move. And all of this because of a chronic illness... people tell me to think positive but it's not easy.. when I just woke up one day and that illness had taken over.. changing my entire life.. forever.. it's not an easy thing to live with jet people think you're faking this disorder.. if I were to fake an illness hell if anyone would fake an illness don't you think you would fake a disorder that people would actually believe? I know there's probably some idiot out there who has faked some illness who ruined it for us that actually are sick.. It just isn't fair..I'm 22 I should be living "the best years of life" but instead I'm trapped in this body that used to be my protector but now thanks to my illness is my prison.
#chronic #illness #lifechanging #ChronicIllness #Pain
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