I have been really lonely since working from home. A few of my co-workers and I planned to have a Webex (like Zoom) meeting online right after work so we could see eachother and talk for fun. Every single person but me canceled because they had made other plans. I am really sad and lonely. Life of a chronically ill person. #Fibromyaliga #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #LonelySoul #Loneliness #Anxiety
starting the year alone, not a real good start. so tired of trying to get the person I love to understand.
if my son wasn't here with me this week, I'm not sure what would happen.
feel so alone. sometimes I just want to sleep and not wake up
#BipolarDisorder
#Depression #LonelySoul
If my health condition could talk, it would tell me im not worth it.
It would tell me i am not worthy of anyone’s love.
It would tell me everyone would leave me, and that no one truly sees me, for me.
Instead they would see me as small and shallow. they would think that i’m just one big battle, and eventually they would grow tired of me pushing them further and further away.
Instead they would wonder how any one could ever love me? how could they love someone so afraid of loving themselves?
It would tell me that life is not worth it.
It would tell me that love is a pointless term used only to describe those that are more worthy than i at receiving those feelings of love.
It would tell me that everyone leaves to go and find someone better. someone with more value and meaning, someone that does not shy from the feeling of love, someone who is used to believing.
But when i am oh so high it would tell me that i am oh so worthy.
But when i am high it would tell me to not care so much for matters and others that don’t concern me.
But when i am high it would tell me i am capable and i am so so deserving.
Instead of focusing on my flaws, it would draw my imperfections in a beautiful line, a line which does not cease to be straight, but one which ceases to be solid, in the name of fate.
Instead of pondering on the love for which others can give, I ponder on the love I have to give. the imperfect, beautiful love I give to myself to make up for the lack of love i receive from others.
I swirl up this love in a potionful which one day i will pour right from the very start, in the formation of my heart, to show that the love that I lacked, has lead me to the right track. #MightyPoets #Love #LonelySoul
I have spent eight years in the dating scene trying to find a woman to date and settle down with. Past eight years I have been told I sound like a great guy, a wonderful guy, told any woman would be lucky to have me, I am kind, caring, wonderful, but then when they see my weight I get rejected around four thousand times and told I am ugly, disgusting, worthless, useless, told I have nothing to offer a woman or give a woman, mocked at laughed at, told I don't deserve love or a relationship, told I needed to end my life for being so fat and lazy. I have had a woman who told me I was worse than a meth head and should be ashamed of my body. I have had men and women on reddit under r/ datingoverthirty sub or whatever it is telling me I shouldn't date no one would want me. I don't deserve to date. I have nothing to offer anyone or have anything anyone wants. I had over 100 redditors tell me that on my post.
I have spent 19 years single, lost my gf who was 4 months pregnant with our twin daughters. then all 3 died from a drunk driver who only served 9 years and is out now and having no cares in the world not caring of the damage he done that night.
I lost my mom when I was 25, lost my real dad when I was 23 only knew him for a couple months. lost my grandma when I was 17. lost an uncle and aunt who I knew but wasn't close to lost them about 8 or 9 years ago. I have no siblings, no cousins no other family. I am utterly alone in this world I have reached out trying to make friends and find friends but being almost 40 it is extremely hard to find anyone.
How many of us walk or drive past trees and never think about all that they contribute to all forms of life. Oh we may admire it from afar or maybe on occasion rest in the shade it provides but do we ever really think about how much it does for us? How without it giving us the oxygen we need to live we wouldn’t exist? Trees are a gift as well as a resource. I feel like a tree in the sense that no one notices me until I’m needed. Once they get whatever it may be from me I become nothing until the next time I’m needed. I feel lost and alone. I have tried to express my feelings only to be ignored and made to feel that my feelings are invalid. I hurt mentally and emotionally and the people who say they love me pay no attention. They say they understand but they don’t. I sometimes wish for death because I am dead inside but I can’t just give up. I have people who depend on me. I just wish every once in a while they would listen to my cries and instead of talk show some action. #Depression #lonelynotalone #LonelySoul
Will my anxiety ever allow me to be in a long term relationship again? It seems as though I hear one comment, misinterpret one text and immediately run for the hills. I automatically assume everyone eventually leaves. I self sabotage potential connections to avoid potential pain. #LonelySoul #selfsabotage
As much as one goes out her door & encourages & inspires Positivity everywhere she goes? Shows compassion & empathy despite feeling like crap some days. Why is it when I’m the one who needs someone like me to ask how I am or sit for a yarn. Why do I have to call someone to get the social inter action that I give others without them asking without hesitation?? ##LonelySoul 🙏🏾😔
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