Mixed

With Fibromyalgia, Hashimoto’s, Depression, Anxiety and 4 back surgeries, I found out yesterday that I have to have another surgery and it’s a doozy. My kyphosis scoliosis went from 10 to 40 degrees in a year, and 13 more degrees in 4 months. I live in constant chronic pain, which my medications no longer provide much help. My neurosurgeon told me my spine is basically collapsing on itself. My muscles and tendons are not doing their job supporting it and my only hope to not live in so much pain is to have a scoliosis surgery, where rods and screws will be put in my thoracic area. 3-5 day hospital stay and doc says I will hate him for the first 6 months. I am in my early 50’s, and scared to do it but also scared to have it progress even more.
Anyone else out there have this surgery? I’m nervous as hell. #kyphosis scoliosis #Fibromyalgia #hashimoto #Depression #Anxiety #Mixed connective tissue disease

How do any of you with bipolar/mixed episodes and anxiety distinguish between an episode of extreme anxiety or if it is a manic episode beginning? I suffer greatly from mixed episodes and anxiety. When my thoughts start to get fast or I get super nervous I have trouble knowing if it's anxiety or another bout of manic symptoms beginning. I have so much fear it's the manic coming back.

#Mixed bag of Nutz!

I’m feeling anxious, depressed and like I may loose it at any minute

Last week I took too many tablets, my way of self harming. I had had enough and just wanted to sleep .... Yesterday I felt like doing the same but started to do something and the horrid feelings eased. I know I am not sleeping much and am worried about having a #Mixed episode again. Please help.

I can’t figure it out. Like what is wrong with me. I tend to want to be isolated a lot or I want to be around people and talk. Why can’t my head not focus straight and be clear minded? Why tf do I go in hyper moods? I just rather stay depressed for the rest of my life because at least I feel like I’m normal then. Why the hell do I have anxiety so fuckin much and it’s not even anxiety that bothers me as much as the facts that my brain feels like it doesn’t think shit thru and that pissed me off because it effects my out look towards people. I lack so much confidence in my self I literally had to keep a dem journal and write down shit to motivate self to stay alive. I feel like shit everyday. I wake up in the morning then I just wanna be shut off from the world. I use to smoke marijuana to keep myself from being depressed it felt so good I wish I could go back. I feel like people don’t even wanna walk up and talk to me ever or maybe I just don’t wanna talk to them or maybe I just look to dem busy and they don’t wanna disturb me. I don’t even want a big group of friends but I do like to have a few and good once if that because people these days just do too much dumbshit ya know