Burning the candle at both ends
I am exhausted. Mentally. Physically. I feel like I aged at least 5 years in 1 week. I have none of my antidepressant, none of my anti-anxiety, and on Tuesday the 14th my dad was diagnosed with advanced pancreatic cancer. He was in the hospital until Friday. Then we had his son and his kids here. That was okay. But I am so tired I am just not okay. Nothing to help me sleep nothing to help me relax and stay calm. My fear/anxiety manifests as either anger or straight up malfunction.
My husband is just as burned out. My mom is a wreck. My kids are always fighting. I am trying to work too. And put money aside to save for any medical treatment costs that my dads medical insurance won't cover.
I am so tired.
I just want to go to sleep. Wake up, and this will all have been one, long, intense nightmare. Can this just be a nightmare. Please? Make this a nightmare!
I am scared.
Migraines for a week and a half straight.
Can't this all be over?
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