I Broke Down Last Night #ChronicFatigue #ChronicPain #EhlersDanlosSyndrome #MyofascialPainSyndrome #Migraine #Dysautonomia #Bipolar
So last night I broke down and just lost and cried and felt sorry for myself. I really hate doing that!! But I’m going through a rough patch. A bad flare where I swear every joint is swollen and screaming bloody murder at me!! And my currently injured joints are so bad that I don’t know what to do anymore! I’ve got a partial torn ligament in one knee, several torn ligaments and damaged cartilage in my wrist, and low and high sprains that haven’t been properly evaluated by my doctor yet but are from the same fall at Christmas that caused the above noted damage! And so for the past few summers I’m usually in a cocoon of constant migraine all summer long but my preventatives are finally at a good dose and the weather isn’t as severe so I was hoping to get to enjoy some stuff with my family but of course not!!! Because with my ankle as bad as it is I can barely walk anywhere!!!!! And of course my orthopedic doctor had to go on leave and so some other Dr is filling in and got distracted on another issue so that I don’t know what the heck is going on and all I want is them to evaluate my ankle, get the MRI, give me the right exercises to do, even though I’m so tired all of the time, so I can get back on my feet! But by the time that happens the summer will be over and I’ll have once again done nothing but stayed home reading books and sleeping all summer long in pain. Again.