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Hi, my name is RoseDew. I’m new to The Mighty and look forward to sharing my story.

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#Depression

#Anxiety #Fightingstigma #Talk #nojudgements

So it’s nearly four Am On the US East coast. I’ll be in the OR in just over four hours, while I’m not exactly nervous I’m much to jittery to sleep. I’ve prepared and prepared. I’ve got freezers full of prepared dinners. I’ve got child care arrangements , I’ve got a stuffed uterus pillow as a gag gift and so on.. whoever reads this please pray for me and a smooth and speedy recovery and a good pathology report

Usually I manage to focus on the very blessed relationship, career and life I have now. Even with all its challenges. Every so often the rage bubbles up. It’s not even what happened cause I’ve sort of come to grips with that. It’s the blame. I was to blame. If you ABCD he won’t do DEF if you lose weight/shower at the right length of time before he comes home/clean the kitchen/serve on China dishes/worship more/spend less/be more spontaneous etc.. guys it had nothing to do with me he was a very sick man tbe product of a very sick background #rant #Chat #listen #nojudgements #PTSD thanks for listening