I've been suicidal for more than half my life now, and every single online resource just says that a solution is "to talk to someone". What if I can't talk to someone?
My parents are amazing, I won't ever deny it. But everyone has flaws, and theirs is that they don't believe that mental illnesses are a thing. A family friend recently attempted suicide, and my mom's response was to chide her about "doing stupid things." I told my parents about having 4 panic attacks within 4 hours, and their response was, "What's a panic attack?" followed by indifference.
My siblings and friends are all younger than me, and I'm 17. Perhaps what they'll do will be right, but I really can't have them telling my parents. And I probably will not be able to take my parents' attitude towards mental illnesses.
Online services are either paid (no income) and/or need parental consent to offer any help.
I have an online friend who helped once. But I don't even know her real name. I feel like a brat, annoying her every few months just to take help, never to give any.
I don't know what to do. I'm tired and done and exhausted. #Suicide #SuicidalThoughts #help #Talk