overthinkingtodeath

So I'll be 25 tomorrow. And this year hasn't been all good and my brain has been giving me a hell of a fight. I've had suicidal thoughts about taking my life before my birthday or on my birthday and I'm fighting that. I also have many troubling thoughts about problems that arent even relevant or there. Like everything and everyone is alright except me. I just feel unloved and helpless. Though thats the lies my bad mind tells me. In reality things are going good. Now do I wish things with certain relationships would be more amorous and affectionate hell yes i deserve that. But I wont demand it. Instead I'm just going to grow up about it. And not overthink its me when it clearly isnt. I feel a bit better letting this out on here. #Advice #overthinkingtodeath #Suicide #Anxiety #Depression

Am tried, and sick my brain wanna to destroy my life, and my relationships, every thing going good my brain wany to destroy it, i need help
#Depression #Anxiety #PanicAttack #overthinkingtodeath

All I want to do is relax but my brain won't let me rest!!!! I can't seem to distract myself. I had a dinner date with a girl friend and I had a wonderful time. But I'm sitting here over thinking every little pause in our conversation or subtle changes in her facial expression when I made certain comments. I started to pick apart every detail of our dinner, until I felt my chest tighten and became tachycardic. Panic attacks are new to me and right now I'm trying not to freak out about how I feel right now. I still feel so overwhelmed.

This is my first time posting here on The Mighty, but I could use some help. I’m in the middle of grad school and I’m very much a Hermione Granger type in school. Lately however my perfectionism and anxiety have made school living hell for me and negatively impacts my family members as well. I need some good suggestions on books dealing with perfectionism, overthinking, and aspects of anxiety for myself and to spare my family from experiencing my anxiety/stress by proxy. I really appreciate any suggestions, but I should mention books that aren’t too academia are preferred.
#AnxietyBooks
#bookrecommendationsneeded #perfectionism #overthinkingtodeath

I have to work, I have to study more to earn money, I have to make the best out of my twenties, I have to get over depression, I have to be happy...

There's a lot on my plate right now. I have, job, but my family is in a financial crisis so I need to find a way to earn more money. Spending time in studies will help me master my craft and make more money in the future which will be good for me and my family. I'm turning 23 next month and I'm still depressed, I don't know how to be happy anymore and don't have much of a drive, and I feel like I'm "wasting my youth" and by the time I'm over depression and anxiety it'll be too late for me to actually enjoy basic things, like going with friends for movie or a trip or dating because I'll be 38 or something and by that time everyone else will be married and I'll be old and will die unloved and alone...

Any idea how to get out of this cycle? #Depression #Anxiety #overthinking #overthinkingtodeath #CheckInWithMe

I would love even a day to be free of overthinking. I overthink EVERYTHING and ANYTHING, relationship, what to wear, what people think of me and it spirals out of control my head feels like a big scramble of mess causing me to feel so panicky. I cant even drink coffee anymore, can anyone else relate or recommend anything to help. #overthinkingtodeath

Has anyone else ever had depression since childhood and felt like we didn't lose a personality because we hadn't had time to build one in the first place?

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I'm new here, so forgive my overuse of hashtags or if some don't have complete correlation to the question. Thanks.

#ChildhoodDisorders #Depression #hollow #overthinking #overthinkingtodeath

It drives me crazy and I have no idea why it does or where the thoughts even come from. And completely at random too.

It could be me doing something completely mundane like brushing my teeth and then all of a sudden I’ll be reminded of what someone said or did and just send my mind reeling all day. Or even when I’m at work and focusing on my job, I’ll get an idea for something in my head on something I plan on wanting to say or do that’s completely unrelated to me doing my work. Which of course derails my train of thought and just makes me want to be done with my day at work that much quicker.

By the time the thoughts and feelings finally run their course, I’m just left drained and not wanting to say or do much. Yet at the same time, I know what eats at me will just come back until I voice what’s wrong. Which as we all know, isn’t healthy.

#Anxiety #overthinker #overthinkingtodeath #CheckInWithMe

The constant thinking, overthinking everything. Going over every thought in my brain analysing them to death has not only exhausted me it is aging my physical self faster each day. When people see me next to older brothers they now think I am older. The state of the world and especially my country has me in a constant worried state. I am stuck because I cannot just take a chance without thinking about the outcome to the point of staying safe and miserable and not doing it. #overthinkingtodeath