Putting it all away?!?
**long rant **
So after a very stressful move over the weekend, that’s still not complete, I’ve had back to back massive panic attacks/PTSD flashbacks regarding my Sons passing 01/2017. Our new a/c intake sounds like his oxygen machine and there’s a weird beeping coming from next door that mimics his PCA pump on his IV pole. *Now the beeping and hospital sounds have stuck with me since he passed but I’ve had someone else over as well to make sure I wasn’t crazy*
The results of this was an “intervention” of sorts with my father and husband who state that it’s time for me to buy my Sons belongings away and allow myself to heal, especially since we’re starting over with this move. WTH! A grandfather and Dad saying it’s time to allow yourself to heal and putting his stuff away will help??!! As my sons primary caregiver through his life/illness and treatment, that’s not going to make it better.
I can’t really be alone in thinking that right?? #ChildLoss #PTSD #Depression #Anxiety #SevereCombinedImmunodeficiencySCID