themightyrocks

Went away for a few days to visit childhood friends. Long story short, they are racist. They say they're not. They have (accept) me, and I'm black (!?) My daughter is a beautiful multicultural woman. Our hearts grow heavier everytime we are blatantly marginalized. Life is full of #teachablemoments #. I am overwhelmed with sadness. I don't try to change people's minds; I want to encourage empathy and compassion #forthegreatergood .

Coloring just clears my mind and just in that time fram all my thoughts despair and some what feel carefree. Lost in world of color and being a picture to life. Well I try... At the end I just enjoy the mini vacation from my overthinking brain. #Anxiety #MentalHealth #AdultColoringBooks #Calming #themightcraftroom #themightyrocks

I read your stories and I try to be empathetic in my responses but sometimes it may sound like comparison, which is not. Most of my responses are of the "Me Too!" variety just trying to say "I have been there, I get it" but most of us are already a lil awkward and sometimes we read things wrong, misunderstandings are easy online.

Writing in general is very hard for me both physically and emotionally, I can't remember what I am doing during it so all rules of grammar get trampled, I already have to stop and retype a million times bc I can't feel my fingertips.

I am never trying to "up one" but It may sound like it. I respect YOUR pain and suffering, I know we all struggle in different ways and I wish I had a way to take everyone's pain away. I try not to put my religious or spiritual believes in my answers, try to be respectful.

Why am I telling you this? Because at times I have a hard time communicating my thoughts properly at times the fog is so thick I get lost. I am hoping by admitting it and being honest is best, rather than try to explain later.

I feel you my mighty, I feel you.

I hope everyone has the best day they can possibly have, that happiness finds you even if its a small thing.

The puppy candy is my girl Kimchi a mutt extraordinare who stole my husbands heart on day one despite his objections. She is modeling her new sweater which lasted 5 days but she loves “outfits” so we try to keep her warm in style. She is getting old so she spends her days napping with me.

#Pain
#Disability #Sociallyawakward #Anxiety
#Depression #Childhoodtrauma #themightyrocks

My goal is to be more patient and try to explain what I need in a more positive way. I screamed at the dogs for fighting but was only the "lil shits" (our two smaller) were actively trying to bite each other while Kaito watched not knowing what to do. I called them ALL in anger because Scott had just walked out the door.
Kaito was upset and started to avoid me, at least that was my suspicion until Scott said he thought Kaito was avoiding me. I knew then I have been pushing him away and yelling at him even tho he needs to stay near me (he is my protector) I immediately started to try to turn that around and with Scott's help he came back in.
I have the most sensitive dog I have EVER had whose emotions wear on his face. I forget he is basically a puppy, even tho he is four he was so neglected he had never slept in a home, or stepped on a sticky.
I could have been mad or stressed out but I was actually relieved that I could still fix it. I realized that I have to calm myself, change my tone, touch him and love him; which is what I need to do all around but specially with my husband Scott and of course Kaito.
I started with Kaito, had already been trying to do this with Scott but there is also Maria (housekeeper) who gets distracted by shinny things and leaves everything half done. She has been driving me crazy but instead of growling or avoiding her I asked her about something she likes.
All 3, immediately lit up and smile as soon as I changed MY attitude and were happy. I have known for a while that I sound angrier and more like a bitch than I actually am, so I started to retreat and let Scott handle it the world (Poor Scott 😳) Now I clearly have to work at sounding and acting not only less threatening but more loving, Kaito can be my regulator.
I have been letting my pain bite the very people that love me and care for me. I ask for empathy everyday but sometimes I get too wrapped up with the pain, I can't promise I will never do it again but will definitely be more conscious about it.

#Caretakers #Pain #dog #patience #CRPS #themightyrocks