Friendship

I posted in a few LGBTQ groups on Facebook looking to make new friends. A very nice trans woman messaged me and we've been chatting for 2 hours. We're gonna get together on Friday after my appointment with my pain specialist.
We're gonna go have lunch at Biggby (Michigan based coffee chain). I outed myself as a leather
puppy and she thought it was cool. I'm excited. This is the first time in a few years that I made a local friend.
The one thing she likes the most about me is the fact I have used my emotional support puppy persona to connect and work with autistic adults. Pauley is actually the first autistic person I worked with. That was 10 years ago.
I think I'm gonna dress quirky. My red harem pants and a black shirt and of course my leather boots.
She's never had bubble tea which is just tragic so I said someday I'll take her to the shop and help her pick flavors. I love bubble tea and teaching people how to order. Pauley loves caramel popcorn so I learned how to mix up some flavor that tastes just like it. She loves it. It can be overwhelming trying to pick flavors but you pick either fruit or dessert.
It's gonna be awesome.
#Friendship

Hello! I recently self-published another article on Medium and wanted to share it here :)

The Quiet Confirmation They Didn’t Want to Be in Your Life Anymore

#Friendship #Anxiety #Grief

In 1999 a fellow Pastor rang me and asked me to go with him to Thailand. The trip was in 3 weeks. I said “I would pray about it”. Which meant I had no intention of going but I didn’t want to sound unspiritual.

It became clear God wanted me to go so I went. For 10 days we worked non stop. The night before coming home I was asked to speak one more time. I was exhausted and protested. Finally I agreed to go and would speak one last time.

For a long time before the trip I had been praying to have a true friend. One that would be there for both good and bad times. One I could be transparent with.

After I spoke, everyone there asked me to pray for them. I prayed short, to the point prayers for everyone. Yet, I was drawn back to one guy. I asked him if he struggled with this area of life, that I specified to him. He was shocked and asked how I knew. I explained God had revealed this to me because I could help him.

We became best friends. Many years ago when I first faced mental health issues he jumped on a plane and came to Australia to see me. We are always completely honest and accountable to each other. I would die for him.

Through the busyness of life we have not seen each other for 7 years. Until yesterday. He was in Manila on a business trip. I was flying into Manila after our ministry in Davao.

We got to meet for one hour before he left The Philippines. What a precious miracle. To be able to hug, talk and laugh. One beautiful hour. If I hadn’t gone to Thailand when I did. If I had rested on the last night. I could have missed our friendship. I am so grateful!

Before I got sick I was extremely active in my community. I taught classes, hosted parties, and attended and hosted monthly munches (group get together at a restaurant for food and conversation) I had a lot of friends who I considered to be family.
Then my health tanked hard.
One of my supposed friends called me a hypochondriac. Said I was doing it for attention.
Shortly after, I realized I'm not submissive or Dom. I'm an emotional support puppy. I'm also a sadomasochist. Then someone who I thought was a friend told me I don't belong in the community if I don't engage in power play. I got angry and I deleted my account. I focused on my mental health. I finally am symptom free and happy. Well... Maybe just relieved.
But my physical health... My body is breaking down. My hips and back are really fucked. I had surgery 3 years ago on my lumbar spine but now I've got more stenosis and the fatty growth strangling my sciatic nerve grew back (I was diagnosed with spinal epidural lipomatosis).
My eyes developed bilateral intermittent exotropia. Or rather I had it my whole life but only now found out. And now we know what is causing my migraines. It requires eye surgery but my surgeon said I'm not a candidate. So basically I was told to get used to the pain.
I've got a really awesome pain specialist. On Friday she did nerve block on my lumbar. I think it was 6 injections. It hurt like hell. But right now I feel fine. This is only temporary cuz she needed to know if the pain would respond. I've got follow up in a few days. If everything is good, I'll get the permanent set of injections.
So basically I have been a pin cushion for 6 months. But what kept me positive was my passion for being active in my community. I had plans. I want to start up a poetry exchange munch at coffee shops. I got genuinely excited. I haven't felt this excited in years. This was super important to me.
And then I posted about it.
I didn't realize I did anything wrong. It was a nice post asking if anyone wants to join me for a poetry munch.
Then the group mod messaged me saying I did something wrong. She suggested I just create an event page. Except how do you get people interested if I don't post about it? So I deleted the post and left the group. I'm not sure how to do this now. It's a tangible part of my being. And I feel like I'm being yelled at for trying to start something new.
Well. I can either try elsewhere or I can give up.
#Friendship #writtenword #SpokenWord #Poetry

Has many faces...

I'm looking for new friends to chat with and eventually have tea parties on FB messenger. If anyone is interested, just message me. If you want to know more about what kind of tea party, feel free to ask.

#Friendship #coffee #tea #TeaParty

My hips feel great. My back not so much. And my butt cheeks feel like it got kicked. My doctor explained my butt hurts cuz I've been walking like a penguin for 3 weeks. Makes sense. Said it's musculoskeletal pain.

I've got a 10am appointment with my BHH nutritionist today. I'm gonna see if she'll take me to 7 eleven. I want to get a special drink and a bag of puff corn. I might get a cappuccino.

I reconnected with a friend who blocked me for a few years yesterday. She's only 10 minutes away from me. We're gonna go to a stitch and bitch next week. I'm gonna bring my sketch book and pens. I'm gonna try to draw a Krampus. It's at an espresso and tea shop. After we get back, I'm gonna cook dinner for us.

My caregiver used to be anorexic. When she got here in May, she was under 110lbs. Now she's around 133lb and she's much more happy with her curves. She's got more fat in the right place. I'm very proud of her.

#Relationships #Caregiving #Friendship

Hi, I know this is a bit outdated but just thought ya'll might want to share pics of your decorated tables, for whatever, Valentines is coming up, have you crafted anything? ANY DELICIOUS valentine recipes to steal our hearts away? IT'S not just about chocolate, you know. #seasonal #ambiance #nourish #Family health #Christmas #Food #home #Relationships #guests #Friendship #Housework