transgender

When I went through puberty as a young girl, I felt trapped in the wrong body. I didn't think I'd ever be free from the nightmare. But then I started testosterone 8 years ago. And my period stopped. And my voice cracked and then deepened. And I became a hairy man beast. And I got pimples.

But 3 years ago I stopped taking testosterone. I started taking norethindrone to stop my period. That's the most important thing to me.

4ish months ago I started taking it again but this time it's a higher dose. My voice is cracking, my facial hair is thicc like pudding, and my poor face and chest are full of pimples. I'm also gaining weight like crazy.

I didn't have much of a choice about restarting testosterone. My hormones bottomed out. It was either testosterone or estrogen. I'm not a girl. So yeah.

#Transgender #Dysphoria

Pauley helps me with my testosterone injections every week. I'm used to the super thin tiny pen needles for my insulin pens. I use sub Q needles for injection of the testosterone in my tummy but they're bigger gauge. She fills the syringe for me.

She always says just shove it in like a dart but I'm like *wiggles needle around and chickens out*

Today was T day. When she told me to shove it in she asked if I wanted help and I said yes. So she took the needle and BAM right in. I didn't feel a thing. Until I started pushing the plunger and OMG owie. But it got done.

Years ago she used to do my injections in my butt with regular needles. It's kinda hard to believe I'm doing my own injection. I'm not scared of the needle, I'm scared of making myself bleed.

#HRT #Transgender #LGBT #HormoneReplacementTherapy

It might be because I drank a bottle of IQ Joe with my dinner lol.

Now Pauley and I are eating chocolate chips. She's going down obscure rabbit holes on Wikipedia while I'm just listening to music and researching medical stuff.

Today was testosterone Tuesday. I have been back on T for about 3 months. My facial hair is coming in thick and my voice is cracking again. But I'm also breaking out in lots of acne. Boy puberty sucks but it's a jillion times better than girl puberty.

My right foot is 2x it's normal size. Tomorrow the first call I'm gonna make is to the Endo. I'm concerned about how lymphedema and diabetes interact.

I'm feeling very invisible. If you see this post, what's your favorite poem? Or if you're feeling spry, write me a haiku about spring.#HRT #HormoneReplacementTherapy #Transgender #LGBT #Transman #testosterone #Lymphedema #Diabetes

Welcome to Monday! I've notticed people have been replying less to the daily questions, if you have any suggestions on how to improve, comment, but until then I will change to every other day.

Whats one thing you want to get done this week?

I'll start. I want to work on my stories

#MightyTogether #LGBTQ #Transgender #nonbinary