Family and Friends

Some days are like this, and that is perfectly ok.

I’ve come to discover what my siblings really think of me. And I have to honestly say that I’m trying hard to get over feeling the way that I feel. It’s like they are moving on and living their lives. While I’m stuck swimming in a pool of emotions. I took my mother into my care in 2020. Because she was living alone 8hrs away and was mixing her meds with alcohol. And when I traveled to check on her I was heartbroken. All of my 4 siblings saw the condition she was in and also her living environment. And we did a group call trying to figure out what to do next.

No one really knew what to do. But they didn’t seem to be doing anything about it at all besides just talking about it. I’m an at home mom so I volunteered to let her move in with me. In hopes that they will agree to help out. Which they all said they will send money to help, they will let her stay with them during holidays. All of this type of stuff lol. It’s hilarious because none of them kept their words after my mom’s first year with me. They did what they said they would do one time. But no more after that.

It’s saddening especially when these people are those that I have also helped. I’ve traveled long distances to support them, babysat their kids for weeks at a time. I’ve loaned money. And the thanks I get for all of the good I’ve done for each one of them. Is to overhear them talk about me behind my back and call me sorry. And to actually have a phone conversation with one who accused me of neglecting our mom when I went out on a date with my husband and didn’t include her. Hmm..

I’ve been on a journey of trying to self heal from all of this because this all happened this month. And November is almost over. And I’m still not over it. I went on a vow silence for a weekend. And it was a super beautiful experience. But two days was not enough for me to completely reap the benefits of silence. I wanted to tap into my inner peace but couldn’t really do that. I would like for it to be a month long experience but with me being a mom and having to take kids to appointments and meet with teachers it seems impossible.

I just need to figure out another way to heal from this realization that my siblings thinks horribly of me. Although, I have been there for them emotionally and financially. Please someone give me some advice. Because my next appointment with my therapist isn’t til after thanksgiving break. And this will be a stressful first holiday that I am absolutely heartbroken by my toxic family members. #sad #HSP #Highly Sensitive person aka hsp #Depression #Introvert #FamilyAndFriends #TheMighty

I think social media can be a very useful way of keeping in touch with family and friends. It can also be a source of misinformation and false images. We tend to only post the positives in our lives, and that’s not necessarily bad. We wouldn’t read peoples posts if they were all negative.

We do need to be careful we don’t compare our life to “Instagramable” life of others. Mundane can be ok. No gets through life unscathed. No one is immune from pain and disappointment.

Let’s keep it real. I saw this sign on an old house today and thought it said it all.

Spare a thought for my two little fluffy overlords, who cannot escape the pupparazzi and have a Mighty Weekend all 🖤

#MightyPets #Pets #Dogs #ForTheLoveOfDogs #TheMighty #MightyTogether #FamilyAndFriends #MightyWeekend #mightyfriends

After living through 2 years of “Fortress Australia” where our borders were closed became of Covid, we are finally getting out of the country.

A month of touring England, Wales, Scotland and Germany. I am a bit nervous about it. I said to my Wife this morning how foreign the whole process of passports and airports seems.

It used to be so routine and second nature. I keep reminding myself that when we have experienced uncertainty overseas we have always had an exit strategy which has allowed us to make quick decisions to get out of the situation.

I am excited, nervous and grateful.

Tonight was a huge tick off my bucket list. I got to see Andrea Bocelli in concert. His son and daughter also sang. Amazing.

It was one of those occasions where it hits you that if your suicide attempt 3 years ago had succeeded you would have missed out.

Now I know I won’t get everything ticked off on my bucket list but as they say, “If you aim at nothing you will hit it every time.

I’m home. 8 days and 4 surgeries later after hobbling into emergency. I really thought it would be nothing serious it certainly came as a shock to be told I could lose a leg and then having a code blue scare, it’s been quite a journey.

I have been home 10 minutes and already enjoying how quiet it is, the fact that I don’t have hourly checks and countless injections.

I am very grateful for the amazing care I received but home is like no other place!!!

In case you need reminding. You truly do matter.