My therapist sessions are usually pretty decent. I never really experience extreme sadness afterwards. I would feel relief inside instead. But there has been a couple of things that I find are concerning. For example she was talking to her dog during my session. And it felt like some of my time was used up on her pet.
Then during our last session she offended me when I explained to her about a copycat in my family who has been pursuing every business endeavor I pursue. Whom has also copied my creative content on social media. I told my therapist that I don’t like when she does that especially since she has family support. And I am considered the black sheep who has to work hard to build a solid following online.
I went on to explain to my therapist that my cousin has an advantage over me. And how I did not understand why she’s mimicking everything that I do.
Including her author headshot she did the same exact pose I did in mine while wearing the same hairstyle. The therapist blew me off and said that it’s a form of flattery. But it isn’t to me especially if she copies every single thing that I do.
I love being unique and having individuality is important to me. Another thing my therapist asked me was, “Am I feeling some jealousy towards the cousin?” Now this is what really made me upset. I felt that the therapist was no longer being there for me. Because one thing that I absolutely despise is people who have a jealousy problem.
Also how would that even make sense if my concern is over the fact that she is copying me?? I want to just break up with this therapist and possibly find another or just do support groups.
Because I was telling my therapist how proud I was of myself for not letting the copycat stop me from doing what I was doing. Because I was on the verge of giving up. I told my therapist that I was able to reduce my stress and anxiety by journaling and dancing to some Michael Jackson.
Because I had discovered that the copycat had stolen yet another idea of mine only 5 days before my therapy session was scheduled. I had to figure out a way to calm down and to let it go. I was proudly sharing with my therapist how I needed a therapy session bad during that time but I managed to find a way to overcome that painful situation.
But after the session I had with her yesterday she didn’t make me feel good about cheering myself up anymore. She made me feel bad because she accused me of being jealous of my copycat! And now instead of waking up with a stretch and a smile like an actress from a Folgers commercial. I am waking up with sadness and a scowl. #Anxiety #MentalHealth #Trauma #Loneliness #FamilyAndFriends #Depression