Unfocused

Nothing seems to get me in the mode to do what I know needs to be done. I have to fill out a diary card for therapy nightly... why does it take me like 3 hours to fill it out!?!???!?!!!! Haha 😆 its funny but also Aggravating, because I lose time for other things like sleep! It’s like every night now where I find myself trying to get it done earlier but I land up fidgeting or snacking on food I find myself binging on food many times....it’s a crying shame... I really can’t get myself to focus. Is it something I should bring up to my therapist? Or should I try to take breaks in between? The binging habit I want to break though ... i don’t know what else to do to get my homework done without falling into a pattern of late night binging and procrastination. Also I dissociate too when I start to over-think too. Gosh... I feel so stupid that it takes me such a long time to do a simple diary card!?!?!? My memory has been impacted with my meds and probably due to #Trauma also. I wish I was more alert but fight with brain fog all of the time... takes me longer to process my words/sentences and remember certain details about things that happened a short time ago.
Does anyone have this happen and how do you get through it? Does it improve? I talked about it with my doctor before and they wanted to give me an adhd med. Not sure how I feel about that.

I don’t know the cause (meds, anxiety, stress) but I have a lot of trouble keeping focused on what needs to be done. I constantly make lists and always feel like I’m missing something. I put appointments into a paper planner that I have, the calendar on my phone, and the calendar in my work email. I do the same thing with deadlines. But I still sometimes flake out and forget to do something. I lose track of time. At work, I’ll talk with one coworker about something and then completely forget to tell anyone else, not only that I completely forgot that I even had that conversation. Help??

#numb and #confused . #Unfocused , can’t work. Don’t want to lose, but can’t care about anything.