acknowledgement

I've been doing this thing whenever I feel like I might be losing perspective on things and it seems to help me settle some of my thoughts. I start writing and I write no matter what comes out, good or bad or repeating.  Short or long sentences but just one sentence at a time, journal writing is huge for me but sometimes it feels so overwhelming.  Slowly with time the gist of the lines have gotten more positive and geared towards getting me through the moment I'm struggling through.  When I first started the lines were negative and mostly self depreciating.  Now I use this to be real, acknowledge what's going through my head and to move past it.

What do I know today: I know...
... my son is healing from his surgery.
... I'm giving him the best care I possibly can.
... his dad is trying & we might not agree but he's not a danger to my son.
... that scares me a little.
... the stress of this situation has a tight grip on my throat.
... I will survive this.
... I will be ok.
... I can manage this without cutting.
... I want to cut.
... I'm not going to cut.
... I want to cut.
... tomorrow is coming and it brings a new page to write.
... I have the tools to make this the best life.
... I may fail.
... I may falter
... that won't define me.
... I'm not a loser.
... I have the strength even when I don't feel it.
... I can.
... I will survive this.
... there are people who love me in my life.
... today may be tough but tomorrow will be better.
... this is my life, I'll live it by my own design.
... I am ok and managing my life.
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