Bipolar 2 Disorder

I started blogging in 2021 with the intention of creating a scrapbook if you will of all my thoughts and feelings about different things I have experienced and if my Bipolar had any influence on my perspectives and opinions. I found that writing was the best way to cope with my extremes of Bipolar as it occupied my mind and focused my attention on the writing and away from the nonsense that I had reverberating around my head. It started with only a solitary word that I wrote but I was thinking about the words and not the nonsense in my head. Slowly the one word became 2, which then became 3 and so on until I was writing full sentences. From these I tried to make a paragraph out of them and join them together as best I could as they weren’t really in a narrative that was comprehensible to understand. Since this I have written 27 songs about Bipolar and associated things that it brings. I have written 3 short books too. I’m under no illusion about these being any good or great pieces of work but I am proud of myself for doing it. I’m an example of how you can make a negative situation become a positive one. I don’t have the answers for anything about Bipolar Disorder but I do have some insight into how to deal with things that I can offer to help others. I have been a far worse person than most people, meaning that I can help others and relate with them in their journeys, as I’ve come back from the abyss and I can now tell the story of how I attempted to get out of it, and maybe even give someone a chance to do it too.

My blog is a collection of accounts of Living with Bipolar Disorder, explanations of the medication used, links to the 3 books I wrote, funny bipolar memes, quotes from a selection of people, a lot of philosophy of the great Alan Watts (someone I highly regard and someone I relate to completely), songs of the day, music polls, stories of my escapades and shenanigans, Fight Club influenced perspectives on different topics, I have actually written a narrative using quotes from the film Fight Club that forms a different narrative all on its own that I’m pretty proud of, it’s pinned on my home page so it’s the first thing that you see.

If you want to check it out then there’s a link below 👇🏼

livingthebipolardiary.wordpress.com

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I’m currently going into a Bipolar Depression phase where I’m sleeping an excessive amount of hours (12 hours at least per night). This is rendering me in a state of what can only be described as a sleep hangover’. I have no appetite through the day and I’m going two or three days without food then I’m gorging on an excessive pizza order. I’m looking pale and tired according to my friends who I have seen and I feel my clothes are a little bit baggier.

So on Tuesday I’m seeing my General Practitioner (GP), because my psychiatrist discharged me in to their care, to see if they will increase my Fluoxetine (antidepressant). It is the only one of the three medications I take for my bipolar they have control over controlling the dosage. My Lithium and Olanzapine have to be controlled still by the psychiatrist.

This appointment has rendered me extremely nervous and anxious. This is because I struggle to get my point across when I see a health professional. I have tried to write it down before for my appointment with my psychiatrist but I’ve always been too embarrassed to take it with me to show him or ask him. I’ve attached some photos of the sort of stuff I wrote, which took me a while with researching it and all, but I never had the confidence to actually show it to my psychiatrist.

So, I was just trying to get a stable perspective of what to say to the GP to give him the best possible opportunity to help me the best way possible. I’ve said this in my blogs before about how Bipolar attacks you from different directions every time you experience a mania phase or a depressive phase and this depressive phase I’m currently experiencing is a new one for me. It is a cruel beast that rears its ugly head from a variety of directions to constantly keep you on your toes.

Secondary to this, I recently had a blood test which showed that I had a raised level of Thyroid. Thyroid-stimulating hormone (TSH) is a hormone that the pituitary gland produces to regulate the thyroid gland's production of thyroid hormones. This majority of the time indicates an underactive thyroid (hypothyroidism). This can be an effect of taking Lithium. My GP rang me to tell me it was raised but only slightly. I said to him that I take Lithium and this was most probably the cause for it. He then asked me how I know that. When I told him I researched it myself he just went “mmm” in an unsure, unimpressed sort of way. He emphasised the fact that the health professionals really don’t like being told somethings that they really should know in the first place so that these sort of situations can be avoided.
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This is another wonderful,post I got off the web. It's #empowering to focus on what we #can do, possibly strengthening us so as to enable us to do even more. Dwelling on our losses- the old life, the person we used to be, the things we can no longer do, is like sabotaging our lives- it weakens us & is self-defeating & absolutely depressing. Pat yourself on the back, instead of kicking yourself in the butt, for just even not #givingup & for fighting the never-ending battle that goes with #ChronicIllness

This is another wonderful,post I got off the web. It's #empowering to focus on what we #can do, possibly strengthening us so as to enable us to do even more. Dwelling on our losses- the old life, the person we used to be, the things we can no longer do, is like sabotaging our lives- it weakens us & is self-defeating & absolutely depressing. Pat yourself on the back, instead of kicking yourself in the butt, for just even not #givingup & for fighting the never-ending battle that goes with #ChronicIllness

Below is a link to a blog I wrote about my experience with an excessively long period of Mania that became annoying after a while 🤪

Living with Bipolar Disorder: Becoming a Hyperactive Maniac,...

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Attached below is a link to the current situation with my Bipolar Disorder. Feel free to read it if you so wish. If you have any comments or want to share your own thoughts and experiences please feel free to share them in a post or in the comments below 🤗

Living with Bipolar Disorder: The Current Situation

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A little bit of humour to brighten up your day a little 🤪🤣👌

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Below is a link to a blog I wrote explaining some things about Lithium and my personal experiences. If you’re taking Lithium or have any interest in learning about it, please check the link out. Any questions you may have about it please feel free to leave them in the comments section below and I’ll try my best to answer them and get back to you 👍

Living with Bipolar Disorder: Lithium Therapy

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