clusterbpersonalitydisorders

My dog tore his pad open today when he was in the river, and I called the vet and she said to bring him in if the bleeding didn't stop and I couldn't get a dressing on. I really struggled to get the dressing on so I called her back to ask if there was anyway for a home visit as I don't have anyway to get there as I don't know anyone to drive me (the nearest vets is 15 miles away due to covid) and her response was "how can you live somewhere and not know anyone that drives? That's ridiculous" (she, no joke, laughed as she said ridiculous). I honestly had to hang up the phone in tears because I was too embarrassed to say it's because I don't have any friends, I really didn't need to be reminded how ridiculous that is to everyone else.

Also I got the bleeding stopped but I can't get a bandage on still so I've ordered some antiseptics online and a E-cone collar to see if I can fix it myself, just in case any one read this and was worried about my pupper.

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPD #EUPD #emotionallyunstablepersonalitydisorder #personalitydisorder #clusterbpersonalitydisorders #lonely #Nofriends #isolated #dog

It is the time of year where loneliness is the hardest. This year is harder. I lost what I thought would be my close friend forever or potential mate. We were never together but we felt connected from our similarities. Sadly our similarities would only damage our mental health.

I fell for his words, he encouragement and how he looked passed my disorder. I thought to myself where did you come from. Times were tough when he’d overeact about little things I did. It started to break me down mentally. I failed my first practicum because my emotional well being was so unhealthy. I believed it was just my disorder but I knew I was in bad shape. At times I was crying hysterically on weekends. I was not well but I knew it couldn’t be anything to do with him.

We stopped hanging out which was very frustrating. I was lost and missed him. As time went on he would get angry if I called. He blocked me off instagram, his phone and facebook.

I have developed an unhealthy attraction to a guy who has a few narcissistic traits. I lost a friend who said i would be an amazing mom. I lost a guy who said i had wife qualities. I lost a guy whom maybe is incapable of love. #Narsissistic #BPD #clusterbpersonalitydisorders #toxiclove