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    University #ChronicDepression #personalitydisorder #LGBTQIA

    I decided to restart uni. It's not simple, with my mental illnesses, to start from the beginning for the second time. It was a hard decision. But I'm ready.

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    Coping with Splitting Behavior in Healthy Relationship

    [Background] Extensive history of trauma beginning in early childhood, with subsequent traumas during military service. Diagnosed with PTSD many years back, with BPD flying under the radar until just a few months ago. I have been struggling with tormenting "light switch" (now I know to be splitting) episodes for over ten years in my personal relationships.

    [Current state] I have two dominant areas where I split. The one I'm more concerned about is my current relationship. My splitting comes in the form of feeling stable, content, happy, and optimistic about my relationship, then a trigger happens, and I rapidly flip to the extreme for days, or even longer. My extreme consists of feeling completely disconnected from what I knew to be true (loving, caring, contentedness, etc.). The episodes are altogether new, familiar, scary, and destabilizing, and come without the ability to see that it will (eventually) end. Without the ability to feel grounded, I feel like I'm lost in space without a tether to what I knew to be true--all I can do is wait and try not to panic that all has evaporated.

    Anyone else experience this? If so, how do you cope?#Borderline #BPD #personalitydisorder

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    Been Feeling Okay For A While - Am I Actually Disordered?

    I've been feeling reasonably at peace for a few weeks now.

    Whenever I feel this way, it makes me wonder if I actually am disordered or if I had just been going through bad spells before.

    I feel like there isn't much to update on. I can't say I'm super happy, but I'm contented and at peace.

    #MentalHealth #personalitydisorder #TheMighty

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    Anxious Attachments, FPs, & Being Too Reactive

    I'm having issues with getting too attached to people, even when I think I'm not.

    I suppose I do tend to "favourite" certain people. It's not fun.

    They usually tend to be very emotionally unavailable.

    If someone tells me that they're busy all the time, it makes me think I'm a nuisance and should just leave them alone.

    I have minor examples of "splitting" them as well.

    I don't usually lash out, but I say very passive-aggressive things that I later regret. It's always rooted in me feeling like I'm an annoyance.

    I just came out of a very strong anxious attachment to someone earlier in the year.

    I wouldn't wish it on anyone. The lows are so agonizing that the highs aren't worth the pain.

    #DependentPersonalityDisorder #Anxiety #AnxietyAttack #Anxiousattachment #FearOfAbandonment #personalitydisorder #Favouriteperson

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    Seeing Beyond The Label: 'Addiction:'

    I believe addiction to extend beyond the clinical terms of

    'dopamine', 'reward', 'cycle', 'pattern', 'habit' & the like.

    I stand by the proposition of it being a chronic disease, as

    you would view any other illness, of which warrants the

    dignity, respect, consideration, acknowledgement, and

    treatment as per any other health condition.

    Terms of 'weak' & 'choice' perpetuate the notion & stigma that

    addicts are 'less than', and do not warrant the common

    courtesy of being a part of the human condition and of

    being human.

    Addiction deserves to be viewed in a holistic, multi - faceted approach; with it's factors,

    components, triggers, and mental health as part of a

    bigger picture of an individual’s entire life experience.

    The key concept in viewing and treating addiction should incorporate a person's underlying / core issues.

    What perpetuates the behaviour?

    What relief & purpose does it bring?

    From what pain and anguish is the person medicating against?

    I firmly state that addiction is not a singular clinical terminology, nor a deficit of character, personality, or willpower.

    I believe it to be a remedy for whatever is missing (real or perceived) within a person.

    The common themes?

    Love. Connection. Relief. Humanity.

    To be human.

    In the duality of being an integral part of the human experience, to be a valued and included member of society as a whole and within a person’s societal community of choice.

    To experience all aspects of being human: the emotions, the roles, and the diversity and complexity.

    Being human can be messy, painful, and unpredictable for us all.

    Throw into the mix trauma, mental illness, stress, and difficulty in emotional regulation, and then maladaptive coping mechanisms and patterns form.

    We are all doing our best being human.

    Trying to deal with life and whatever that entails for us.

    We all seek relief, comfort, and peace: in a multitude of ways.

    For some, what once started as remedy and medicine, has become addiction, in whatever form that may take.

    (Behavioural - Gambling, Substances & Alcohol)

    To be human is complex.

    Addiction is complex.

    Addiction is to be viewed holistically, broadly in scope, and with the basic kindness and compassion of that which is the human condition.

    #Addiction #MentalHealth #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #personalitydisorder #PTSD #PTSD #CPTSD #ADHD #Trauma #Abuse #narcissistic #narcissist #Recovery #Addict #AddictionRecovery #Healing #heal #Depression #Anxiety #OCD

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    Real Inner Healing

    Real inner healing doesn't come with a pill it comes from being prepared to give up what is making you sick.

    That's not just certain foods or habits but the emotional patterns of behaviour that you sabotage yourself with.

    #MentalHealth #personalitydisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPD #EUPD

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    Lonely #personalitydisorder #anxiety #Depression

    I can’t leave me house.. because of my depression and anxiety. I’m tired of being alone. my friends never want to hang out with me.. I just wanna be happy. I want to go out and get a gf. But I just can’t pull my shit together. I play guitar and sing because it used ti make me feel better. But all I write is sad songs and no one wants to hear that all the time.. Nothing is really keeping me happy anymore. I’m jealous of people who can just talk all the time and that are genuinely happy.. I’m fucked up and don’t know what to do anymore.. I can’t hold a conversation to save my life.. I think I’m a cool dude I don’t think I’m ugly… idk wtf is wrong with me. It seems no one wants to give me a chance

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    Writing out my thoughts 💭

    I feel unhappy, depressed, feel like crying but there’s just some tears in my eyes not falling out, physically I feel something heavy on my chest, something in my throat, feelling hot on the inside of the body and but cold on the outside due to the fan blowing on me, my stomach is growling, I am not sure if I am hungry, my tongue is in pain because there is an ulcer on it. I have been trying to make new friends online, but I have so many pending messages that I am not replying to them, I worry that they will dislike me for not replying, but I don’t feel well enough to engage in conversations, I don’t want to reveal that I am actually very unhappy, but faking happiness seem such an insincere thing to do, I don’t want to be insincere. I am not very sure why I am in such a state, maybe because things are not going the way I want it to, and I am not willing to accept it. I prepared many things to fill up my time, I prepared movies to watch, novels to read, mobile games to play, colouring to do, word search book to do, songs to listen, but I don’t feel like doing any of those things, I am hiding in my room, lying on my bed, just wishing everything is fine again. I don’t feel like I can do these things, but I know I want to go to work, have my psychiatrist back again, stop feeling hurt and embarrassed by the past, go out with my best friends for dinner and chatting, maybe watch some movies, go out and meet new people with confidence, dress up in nice clothes and simply be happy again. I want to enjoy my life but I can’t do it. I don’t like it that things are out of my control. I don’t like the things that have happened to me. I don’t like that the future seem so dark and scary. I don’t even know if this is depression. I try to google the answer to stop all these pain but they keep telling me to move on, to accept things, to do things. I don’t want to hear those answers, I don’t want to do them. I feel like people will tell me “if I don’t help myself then no one can help me”. I’m so afraid to hear that, I don’t want that to be the truth. I need help, I feel afraid to be left alone to fend for myself, I wish my psychiatrist can help me again, As I am writing this, I am finally crying. But nothing has changed, the problem still exist, I am still helpless.
    #Depression #Anxiety #SocialAnxiety #AnxietyDisorder #SocialAnxietyDisorder #dependantpersonalitydisorder #ParanoidPersonalityDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #personalitydisorder #Anxietythoughts #PanicAttacks #PanicDisorder #ergophobia #AvoidantPersonalityDisorder #Autism #PsychoticDisorder #Psychosis

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    I’m new here!

    We’ll kind of new. I redownloaded the app after not using for a while. Hello! I’m a 29 year old phlebotomy student who struggles with some mental health disorders and wishes to connect with other people who can relate. I’m diagnosed with Bipolar II, Borderline Personality Disorder, Generalized Anxiety, Dermatillomania, ADD - Inattentive, and I also have a math learning disorder call Dyscalculia. I have struggled extensively with self harm and suicidal ideation, and have had periods of substance abuse. I used to struggle with Anorexia Nervosa but now it’s flipped to Binge Eating disorder. I have experience with being inpatient at psychiatric hospitals and residential eating disorder treatments centers. It’s weird being so transparent and vulnerable with my diagnoses but I hope to find a community here.

    #personalitydisorder #PTSD #BipolarDisorder #Bipolar2Disorder #ADHD #BipolarDepression #BingeEatingDisorder #EatingDisorders #Selfharm #Dyscalculia #SubstanceAbuse #Anxiety #Dermatillomania #Depression

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    Poetry page!

    Hi everyone! I started an Instagram poetry page and would love some support. It has no posts yet but will soon. The username is: poetrybykeeley

    I would appreciate a follow so much! Thank you in advance ♥️ All the posts will be related to mental health/illness

    #OCD #Depression #MentalHealth #MentalIllness #Suicide #SuicidalThoughts #Poetry #feelings #BPD #Writing #MightyPoets #personalitydisorder #coping #

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