Walking is life
Ok I went on a long walk in the PNW fall air and it was raining ever so slightly. I feel better. Take that #Agoraphobia #Anxiety #Depression #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder !
Ok I went on a long walk in the PNW fall air and it was raining ever so slightly. I feel better. Take that #Agoraphobia #Anxiety #Depression #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder !
My life has changed a lot.
My circumstances have changed a lot.
I have changed a lot.
Sometimes, when I look back at how I've coped before, I am shocked at how badly I coped.
I am shocked at how much I hurt and struggled...
But I know now that I always did my best.
With what I had and what I knew.
And I want to thank all the old versions of me for getting me to where I am today.
I recognize your fight and your will to be.
And I am thankful we made it this far.
#MightyTogether
#Support
#MentalHealth
#CPTSD
#Trauma
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#AvoidantPersonalityDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Burnout
#HighlysensitivePerson
(Picture from Pinterest)
My life has changed a lot.
My circumstances have changed a lot.
I have changed a lot.
Sometimes, when I look back at how I've coped before, I am shocked at how badly I coped.
I am shocked at how much I hurt and struggled...
But I know now that I always did my best.
With what I had and what I knew.
And I want to thank all the old versions of me for getting me to where I am today.
I recognize your fight and your will to be.
And I am thankful we made it this far.
#MightyTogether
#Support
#MentalHealth
#CPTSD
#Trauma
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#AvoidantPersonalityDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Burnout
#HighlysensitivePerson
(Picture from Pinterest)
Hi,
I am working on distancing myself from a triggering friendship and I think I may need some space to vent.
I made friends with someone from a support group, and the more we hung out, the more it became one sided and triggering. She presented herself as someone who was working on her mental health so she could get her kids back from her ex and return to work. The more time passed, the more I saw she actually wasn’t doing the things she needed to do for her mental health. I heard her say she doesn’t want to work and “wants to be disabled.” She also isn’t doing the things the kids therapist is telling her to do to earn the kids trust back (she disappeared for a period of time which is why her ex husband has her kids). I have tried having multiple conversations with her about getting more support and she says she is going to and doesn’t follow through. She is engaging in behaviors that are just continuing to keep her in an unhealthy place where she is at home all day by herself, not getting help, and getting advice from TikTok (including self diagnosing herself with several things).
Then things started getting inappropriate. I told her not to send me TikTok videos because i don’t want to see the content she sends me, she continues to send them anyways. She asked me for my adhd medication so she could clean her house. She asked my boyfriend and I for money “as a joke”, even though I am disabled and her mom gives her about $5,000 a month for her expenses. She told me she wants to act like a teenager (she is in her 40s) and be vindictive to her ex husband in front of her kids. Not only that, she has mentioned some “intrusive thoughts” regarding her kids safety which was concerning and completely inappropriate to share with me. I set a boundary with her saying I cannot hang out with her until she starts doing more for herself. However, she still continues to text me TikTok videos, texts about relationships she wants to be in and how she is updating her dating profile but won’t get tested for STIs because it’s too much work, and anything else that she has been avoiding with. She asked me if there are cloth adult diapers so she “wouldn’t have to get up to go to the bathroom.” Nothing that indicates she is taking what I said seriously, or doing things to apply for a job so she can get custody of her kids like she says is her priority, or that she is doing anything to help herself.
With help from my therapist, I finally realized how triggering it was and how much it was impacting me. I realized I was doing a lot of mental gymnastics to rationalize me continuing to show up in this friendship and meet her where she is at. I genuinely feel bad because I know she needs help. But she has family who is significantly helping her and I just need to figure out what to do next. I don’t think a conversation would help, considering I have tried many different ways to approach this. I don’t necessarily want to just block her though either. I have already stopped responding as much and so it may just have to be a gradual pull away.
Anyways, these are just some thoughts right now. If anyone reads this and has experienced something like this, I would love to hear how you managed this.
#Agoraphobia #PanicDisorder #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #ADHD #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #Migraine #ChronicVestibularMigraine #CheckInWithMe
This is Dexter my safety plush. When I am overloaded with flashbacks or anxious or triggered he keeps me safe. I feel 100% safe holding him despite being a 32 year old adult transman. My therapist and I are doing grounding work for trauma. He helps me so much. #PTSD #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder
"I will practice self-kindness as I am on the right path for me".
We all have different paths.
Different journeys.
Some people won't understand our journey.
I have many people in my life who don't understand what I am doing - and why.
But I am learning to be okay with this.
As long as I get what I'm doing and why.
As long as I believe, I am the right path for me.
I remind myself:
"Not everyone will understand your journey. That's fine. It's not their journey to make sense of. It's yours".
And as I take healing steps, I am also reminded, I am doing what is right for me.
I want to wish you the best week you can have.
#MightyTogether
#Support
#MentalHealth
#CPTSD
#Trauma
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#AvoidantPersonalityDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Burnout
#HighlysensitivePerson
(Picture from Google)
"I will practice self-kindness as I am on the right path for me".
We all have different paths.
Different journeys.
Some people won't understand our journey.
I have many people in my life who don't understand what I am doing - and why.
But I am learning to be okay with this.
As long as I get what I'm doing and why.
As long as I believe, I am the right path for me.
I remind myself:
"Not everyone will understand your journey. That's fine. It's not their journey to make sense of. It's yours".
And as I take healing steps, I am also reminded, I am doing what is right for me.
I want to wish you the best week you can have.
#MightyTogether
#Support
#MentalHealth
#CPTSD
#Trauma
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#AvoidantPersonalityDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Burnout
#HighlysensitivePerson
(Picture from Google)
As of early this morning, I can really say that I don't belong anywhere. After some soul searching about myself and my relationships, I've noticed that I feel removed from them and that my interactions with these people are stale at best. I feel like I need to be some place else. I need to be some place else, I don't know where, but just somewhere else. #MentalHealth #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder
We made it to Friday.
However you got through;
You got through.
And you get a BIG gold star⭐️
Do you want to take a moment and reflect on a win from your week, some gratitude, or maybe a glimmer?
And you're more than welcome to share with us in the comments.
As always;
I'll get us started in the comments.
One last thing:
I am so thankful you are in the world.
#MightyTogether
#Support
#MentalHealth
#CPTSD
#Trauma
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#AvoidantPersonalityDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Burnout
#HighlysensitivePerson
(Picture from Google)
We made it to Friday.
However you got through;
You got through.
And you get a BIG gold star⭐️
Do you want to take a moment and reflect on a win from your week, some gratitude, or maybe a glimmer?
And you're more than welcome to share with us in the comments.
As always;
I'll get us started in the comments.
One last thing:
I am so thankful you are in the world.
#MightyTogether
#Support
#MentalHealth
#CPTSD
#Trauma
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#AvoidantPersonalityDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety
#Burnout
#HighlysensitivePerson
(Picture from Google)