Vanquishing the Inner Critic
I call my inner critic Mrs. Rochester (from Jane Eyre) because she wants to burn it all down. After nearly two years of therapy and somatic experiencing, that cruel voice is finally fading. Gabor Maté's The Myth of Normal helped me put so much into perspective. Not just about complex trauma, but about how the world perpetuates it. Humanity has an astonishing capacity to normalize the worst—look no further than how people in positions of leadership decided COVID didn't poll well, so now we're ignoring it at the peril of our own lives in a mass-disabling event. As we kick of Mental Health Month in May, I look back on the crisis that led to my CPTSD diagnosis two years ago, and how much progress I've made since then. Grateful for all the resources that helped me be more even-keeled, though I'm a work in progress. But finally, some of those old ghosts are finally moving on, and Mrs. Rochester is a lot quieter these days.