Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder

Y'all I'm am so #anxious . I've been experiencing low blood pressure. Today it was low that I felt SO dizzy. I felt terrible. So much so that I couldn't drive to get any of my errands done. I felt SO much #Fatigue . When I went to the neurologist last Friday it was low according to the nurse 93/65. This has been going on and off for a couple of months. Is there anyone else that has experienced this? I'm planning on calling my pcp, but he's not the greatest. I'm really anxious about this. I dread the idea of going through the process of finding out the cause. I really don't need this.
I already suffer from several chronic illnesses, some physical and others mental health related.
#Anxiety #Depression #Fibromyalgia #Migraine #Hypothyroid #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #CPTSD

Y'all I'm am so #anxious . I've been experiencing low blood pressure. Today it was low that I felt SO dizzy. I felt terrible. So much so that I couldn't drive to get any of my errands done. I felt SO much #Fatigue . When I went to the neurologist last Friday it was low according to the nurse 93/65. This has been going on and off for a couple of months. Is there anyone else that has experienced this? I'm planning on calling my pcp, but he's not the greatest. I'm really anxious about this. I dread the idea of going through the process of finding out the cause. I really don't need this.
I already suffer from several chronic illnesses, some physical and others mental health related.
#Anxiety #Depression #Fibromyalgia #Migraine #Hypothyroid #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #CPTSD

Caregiving is exhausting... What I struggle with the most is when the person I'm caring for gets frustrated and angry with their situation and starts lashing out at everything; hitting things, yelling, venting. I understand it comes from a place of suffering and I try not to take it personally but I'm the only person here to yell at, and anger is triggering for me due to CPTSD. I try to step away but I get pulled back in. Sometimes I wish I was stronger and could manage all of this without it affecting me.

#CheckInWithMe #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #Caregiving

I’m exhausted.

I cannot figure out a way to sleep in my car with the multitude of individual, environmental , and financial, medical, and social factors that intersect with my situation.

It just isn’t going to be safe no matter what. It is not fit for human cohabitation. No matter what.

Throw in my #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #CPTSD #PTSD #Agoraphobia #PanicAttacks #ADHD #ChronicMigraines #ChronicVestibularMigraine #Migraine

It just isn’t going to be okay.

I’m exhausted.

I cannot figure out a way to sleep in my car with the multitude of individual, environmental , and financial, medical, and social factors that intersect with my situation.

It just isn’t going to be safe no matter what. It is not fit for human cohabitation. No matter what.

Throw in my #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #CPTSD #PTSD #Agoraphobia #PanicAttacks #ADHD #ChronicMigraines #ChronicVestibularMigraine #Migraine

It just isn’t going to be okay.

I’m ineligible for many services or opportunities because I don’t have severe depression, I don’t have children, and i don’t have a substance abuse disorder

I am a survivor of dv and the agency I’ve worked with for years has restricted my services when I started pushing back on the stuff they did wrong.

It feels like stonewalling.

This is the second agency with a long history with me who is now treating me like I do not matter.

I wish I could pull out a list of reasons I know why my life is worth saving. I could tell them if someone asked.

The dv agency said “we work with survivors not for survivors.” Bolder in the email than the rest of the text. Or that is how it is in my memory. I’m too scared to look.

It implies I haven’t been showing up or doing my part when they have repeatedly have acknowledged I am. It feels like the script has flipped and i don’t know what rules I’m supposed to be following anymore.

I wish I had a list of all of the things I have tried with so much effort. I am well resourced. I was a leader in a field that problem solved for children with disabilities. I apply a lot of it to making my life more manageable. I have worked so so so hard.

On top of it- they didn’t call me for our scheduled appointment because something came up. She told me to call her back. I didn’t. I was told not to call her. I probably could call her if she told me. But I literally never know anymore.

They know I don’t have food, toiletries, money, etc.

Yet they set firmer lines when things got harder for me.

I have been so patient. Unbelievably patient. Despite not having enough to live on, enough to eat.

They didn’t even call me on the phone to hear why I have been upset. They read my emails and that was it. I didn’t expect to get cut off.

I’m scared these dumps are getting annoying but I really hope they help me work out what of the fires I am most likely to be able to put out first. What is the most urgent. Etc. thank you so much for any words of support. 💗

#Anxiety #ChronicIllness #ChronicMigraines #ChronicVestibularMigraine #Agoraphobia #PanicAttacks #ADHD #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #CPTSD #DomesticAbuseSurvivors #PTSD #Trauma

I’m ineligible for many services or opportunities because I don’t have severe depression, I don’t have children, and i don’t have a substance abuse disorder

I am a survivor of dv and the agency I’ve worked with for years has restricted my services when I started pushing back on the stuff they did wrong.

It feels like stonewalling.

This is the second agency with a long history with me who is now treating me like I do not matter.

I wish I could pull out a list of reasons I know why my life is worth saving. I could tell them if someone asked.

The dv agency said “we work with survivors not for survivors.” Bolder in the email than the rest of the text. Or that is how it is in my memory. I’m too scared to look.

It implies I haven’t been showing up or doing my part when they have repeatedly have acknowledged I am. It feels like the script has flipped and i don’t know what rules I’m supposed to be following anymore.

I wish I had a list of all of the things I have tried with so much effort. I am well resourced. I was a leader in a field that problem solved for children with disabilities. I apply a lot of it to making my life more manageable. I have worked so so so hard.

On top of it- they didn’t call me for our scheduled appointment because something came up. She told me to call her back. I didn’t. I was told not to call her. I probably could call her if she told me. But I literally never know anymore.

They know I don’t have food, toiletries, money, etc.

Yet they set firmer lines when things got harder for me.

I have been so patient. Unbelievably patient. Despite not having enough to live on, enough to eat.

They didn’t even call me on the phone to hear why I have been upset. They read my emails and that was it. I didn’t expect to get cut off.

I’m scared these dumps are getting annoying but I really hope they help me work out what of the fires I am most likely to be able to put out first. What is the most urgent. Etc. thank you so much for any words of support. 💗

#Anxiety #ChronicIllness #ChronicMigraines #ChronicVestibularMigraine #Agoraphobia #PanicAttacks #ADHD #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #CPTSD #DomesticAbuseSurvivors #PTSD #Trauma

I recently lost one of my parents. It was very unexpected. I’ve been feeling awful, not only because losing one of the most important people in my life is soul crushing, but because I’m afraid I will lose my remaining parent soon and will also be crushed by that and I will be alone. #Depression & #CPTSD have made it difficult for me to succeed in life. I’m not married. Not much other family. I’m terrified of the future and I can’t stop thinking that I’ll be feeling constantly lonely and anxious. I have a hard time trusting anyone and I’m financially insecure right now. I know I can’t change losing people, I just don’t know how to lessen all of these feelings of fear, etc. I’m wondering if others have felt like this. Thanks for listening.