confussion

I got two both left home a few years ago my youngest is with his mom , I miss my kids it brings tears to my eyes knowing they will most likely never move back in with me not that it’s wrong o just feel so alone almost scared sometimes like they dislike me so they won’t be returning I know that’s not it it’s just it feels that way . My other question how should I go about life now he was my life for awhile now I don’t want to be where I am not that I did before but I am to dumb to leave . I’m hurt I suffer from metal illnesses and don’t want to stay where I am how do I make life better for me I think ? But although I have ideas they not working , cause I can’t seem to make them work either pain or mental pain one or the other always interferes and I just seem to be getting older sicker and weaker . Does anyone have any advice ? This really is hurting me . #Depression #PTSD #ChronicPain #confussion

Broken hearted

Hey guys
This is my first time using anything like this, I’ve been struggling bad and thought I’d give it a go.. sorry it’s a long one 🤦🏼‍♀️
my Names Brenda, I met a man about 6 months ago, we fit like the perfect puzzle. Got along had no issues. He always took me out paid for everything we even went to the Gold Coast for a holiday and for me to meet his children, our conversations were deep, he consistently told me he loves me and will Marry me one day and so on.. life was bliss and I was in love ! Then just the last week I noticed he had been becoming a bit disrespectful of me in the bedroom, and then just the other night he asked me to meet him out at the pub. I got there and all was fine we laughed and kissed no issues ... until I asked if I could add him on Facebook ... we blew up he looked at me like I was scum on the bottom of his shoe, he began to yell at me “you don’t know me at all do you, you know nothing about me “ and “ you need to go home you’re drunk(id had one beer) I demand you go home “ and he turned his head and pretended I didn’t exist, wouldn’t respond wouldn’t look at me and when I cried he laughed at me like he was empty. This continued for a little longer and more was said but it’s more how he looked at me it scared me he was so empty .. I left him alone and later he walked up and gave me a beer and winked at me and left. I woke up to a text message saying I had too many red flags and he can’t do this , his finished and wished me good luck. He ignored my calls and texts and I haven’t heard from him since
How can things flip like that ? Has anyone been through something similar ? I feel I was dating a stranger after seeing that .. how can someone throw you away after all the connections we had and just delete you ? I’ve been struggling getting through this it’s effected me bad, I wake up during the night crying, I’m filled with a sick feeling to the point I can’t eat, I’ve lost all my energy and I’m so numb and sad.
I thought he was the one but I feel like I just got scammed
Please help 💔😢

I’m trying to process what a great doctor told me today: Doesn’t think that I’ll need surgery just yet. I need more tests and try shots to relieve the pain in my lower left back and down into my left leg. I’m also dealing with a parent who wants to take over any decisions (I’m 35 and will be 36, in May). I have work very hard to keep my boundaries with this parent while I can’t do most chores around the house so I’m realling on my rents 4help w/laundry &food shopping. Oxy is kicking now I can’t think straight with it in me

I recently just found out that i have a mood swing disorder but my doctor haven't diagnosed me with that disorder but my parents and my counselor see that i have it but my counselor said she was going to talk to my doctor about it. I'm trying to figure out how to deal with them and control them. But i know this is new to me and shiz but i had broke down in class yesterday because i was crying all morning then right after lunch ( 11 : 30 i was pissed because people trying to get me into the drama they trying to start between people and then not even 20 mins later i was happy as i could be because my best friend asked me about the guy i been talking to and about me going to prom with him. Like i realized why they been saying that. It just so overwhelming and i'm honestly not sure how to control them. Also i'm sorry if it makes sense but then it doesn't i was never good at writing anything. Buuuuuuttttttt yeeeeeaaaaaa #MoodDisorders #confussion #stayingstrong