I don’t know if what I feel is right or not. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Daddyissues
When I was 8, my dad cheated on my mom and they divorced, I remember I fekt like if he had cheated on me too and I used to get so mad at him for bringing me to his girlfriend’s house. She had 2 kids about me and my sister’s age and I used to feel so jealous that those kids would have my dad for them every night and not me. A lot of hate towars his girlfriend and those kids grew in me. Im 25 now and I moved to another country. I barely talk to my dad, he has only visited me once since I moved and the time he was here I thought we had fixed a lot of things. But he told me that he hired a paralegal and that girl is his ex girlfriends daughter. I dont know if Im being crazy and dramatic but that brought my feelings back again, I feel jealous that she is the one spending so much time with my dad and not me. Lately I’ve been seing that my dad takes her for dinner, takes her home everyday and celebrates her birthday with her. I also saw a story from her yesterday where she is in my dad’s bedroom and that made me feel so much anger. I really don’t know if I should express my feelings or just keep them to myself. I feel stupid because Im happily married and my husband is an amazing man, nothing like my dad so I feel so blessed for my life now but at the same time I don’t understand why my dad’s decisions keep hurting me.