Once again I’m here. Trying to sleep but instead crying. Thanks dad.
This month his gf had birthday and I forgot. He didn’t remind me and now used it to guilt trip me. I’m so tired of this. He went off on me and I asked him why wouldn’t he tell me when I forget and he said it’s my job to remember, as if I wasn’t the one constantly reminding him everyone else’s birthday and name days for a decade now. As if I have nothing better to do than think of someone who’s fucking stranger to me and hates me since childhood. Someone I don’t have and don’t desire to have any relationship with.
I asked him if he’d help me move and he asked me if I ever call/text him when I don’t need something, as if the fucking phone doesn’t work both ways.
At this point I really want him or his gf to have a stupid remarks at me during a family celebration, just so I can pick a fight and give him an ultimatum.
I’m trying to sleep but instead I’m thinking of all the things I’d like to scream at him and tell him how much he had hurt me in my life.
I have so much anger inside of me and I’m so exhausted with having to carrying it all the time.