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My dad has IBM which is rare. It’s similar to ALS. Before helping my dad, I was a caregiver to my grandmother. She sadly passed away. I feel lucky to have been able to take care of those who took care of me growing up. It saddens me seeing my dad get weaker and losing his abilities. Right now he’s healthy. He can still walk with a walker(very slowly). We recently moved into a rancher so he can get around better in his wheelchair and we just had my parents bathroom redone so he can shower(he was getting bed baths). #IBM #Caregiver #Father #grandmother #Stress #Anxiety

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Once again I’m here. Trying to sleep but instead crying. Thanks dad.

This month his gf had birthday and I forgot. He didn’t remind me and now used it to guilt trip me. I’m so tired of this. He went off on me and I asked him why wouldn’t he tell me when I forget and he said it’s my job to remember, as if I wasn’t the one constantly reminding him everyone else’s birthday and name days for a decade now. As if I have nothing better to do than think of someone who’s fucking stranger to me and hates me since childhood. Someone I don’t have and don’t desire to have any relationship with.

I asked him if he’d help me move and he asked me if I ever call/text him when I don’t need something, as if the fucking phone doesn’t work both ways.

At this point I really want him or his gf to have a stupid remarks at me during a family celebration, just so I can pick a fight and give him an ultimatum.

I’m trying to sleep but instead I’m thinking of all the things I’d like to scream at him and tell him how much he had hurt me in my life.

I have so much anger inside of me and I’m so exhausted with having to carrying it all the time.

#Father #anger

I’m laying everything on God. My earthly dad was a complete bad person. He has hurt every life he has touched.

I want to let go and trust God. I am almost there. I don’t want my heart broken. Yes, God has done so much. But…🧎🏿‍♂️🌈

#Suicide #Dad #Father #Death #Dead #Die #sad #Depression #depressed

I'm clean since 26th of May right now. 6 weeks?
It's getting warmer and I want take of my jacket but I'm too afraid how my teachers and the other guys in my school will react. What do you think? Take of the jacket or not? I do not have any wounds just scares but they are still eye-catching.

Also I will be for two weeks in Italy next month. I told my father about the cutting but he didn't really react. I never wear T-Shirts at home but in Italy I have to...I'm afraid even tough my father knows about the cutting. I don't want to cause any reaction in the future just because he sees my scares every day for two weeks.

I'm thinking too much right now!
#Cutting #Selfharm #selfharmthoughts #Father #Family #School #Scars #Depression #Anxiety