I hate myself. What’s the point of living? I just eat, go to the toilet, sleep and breathe. I hate my life. This is not the way I wanna live. I’m the same girl I was yesterday. I don’t want to live like this. Sometimes I feel like I’m going insane. My lifestyle makes me sick and it sucks. Before anyone tells me “then change something about it” it’s not easy okay? I try my best and I tried so many times but nothing changes. I hate my diagnosis to death. I’m so angry at myself. I wanna destroy, punch and scream and let my pain and anger out. I’m tired of being fat and before you tell me that being fat isn’t wrong- I know but there’s something wrong with me being fat. I’m not comfortable with the way I look. Being overweight isn’t easy either. I have so much pain in my body because of it. I can’t go out either to do sports. I am so scared of going out. I just can’t. I can’t wake up in the morning and I can’t sleep at night. I hate it so so much.
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