dermatologist

So everyone is going on and on about how fantastic doctors are right now and usually I agree. I clap for them on Thursday. My partner is a biomedical scientist for the NHS so I appreciate everyone who works there. Especially now. But today I am so bloody angry at them all. I realise they aren’t all awful but two in two days just makes me mad at them all!
First the dermatologist I was referred to doesn’t have my medical notes and before even seeing the suspicious mole, tells me it’s fine and I shouldn’t have seen a doctor. Says I “would know if it was cancerous”. And then says keep an eye on it but it getting bigger and suddenly having two colours isn’t a reason to see a doctor.

Then I ring the GP surgery today to get another tramadol prescription and to discuss contraception. First I face the Spanish Inquisition about the tramadol which I expected. He finally gives in and prescribed it (I’ve literally been having it for 3 years and just don’t have it on repeat because I don’t take it often enough). Then I move on to contraception which I didn’t anticipate as a problem. Instead of having the contraception injection I should have had two weeks ago, they put me on the pill due to the virus. I totally understood why they wanted me to try the pill so I agreed and they PROMISED that I could have the injection if, after two weeks, the pill wasn’t helping my pain levels (the injection does) or there was any side effects I didn’t like, they would just let me have the injection as extenuating circumstances. So it’s been two weeks and my pain is worse, as well as the pill is really affecting my mental health. It makes me feel like I haven’t taken my anti depressants, has me crying all the time about everything (happy and sad) and makes me suicidal. I had to be signed off work due to depression for a while last year and had CBT for it 6 months ago. Been on these antidepressants for nearly a year and was on others for 3 years prior. Doctor says he disagrees with the other doctor and that I should be on the pill until roughly July when they open back up properly. Said it was only for people who really need it and I don’t. Said to try paracetamol for the pain and that sometimes hormonal contraception makes you feel sad for a while. Are you kidding me?

So thanks to docs for all they do but my god are some of them awful at their jobs. Thank you for risking your life but could you not risk mine too?

Gonna go cry in bed worth my guilt.
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I went for a follow-up appointment with my dermatologist today. She is so amazing. I really love her, as a doctor. She knows her stuff. She is the doctor who diagnosed my Dermatomyositis. She has been my saving grace. If it weren't for her, I don't know how long it would have taken to get a diagnosis.
The very first time I went to see her. She walked into the room, looked at me from across the room and said, I know what you have. Mind you, this was before she even examined me. I almost jumped up and hugged her, I did later. I believe I cried though.
Anyway, she always asks how things are going, and she really is concerned. I mean, I could walk in there and she could look at my skin and send me on my merry way but she doesn't. She, somehow, I'm not sure why, knows the painful aspect of this disease. She knows more about it than my Rheumatologist. That was our main topic of discussion today. What all my Rheumatologist was doing for my disease. Basically nothing. Same meds from the start, 3 years ago, just less dosage. He does not think this disease is serious. He acts like it is no more than a very mild form of arthritis.
Anyway she wasn't happy. I think she suspected something along these lines. Maybe I looked like crap today. I don't know but she is setting me up to go see another Rheumatologist. I've been needing to change for quite a while. I'm glad she took me under her wing and is expediting it for me. She is awesome. I may actually get some pain relief this year. I may feel human again. WOOHOO #Myositis #dermatologist #newdoctor#bettermeds #Pain   #Painrelief
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