I have been feeling very odd recently and disassociating. Today I had a flashback to sexual harassment I had long forgotten. It never goes away. It haunts. No matter how much healing you do. Trauma raises its ugly head and pulls you down. #BPD #Bipolar #Trauma #PTSD #Dissasociation
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I have been working on processing and accepting repressed memories (as well as more recent events) for a year and a half now. I originally started working with a therapist because of a divorce, marriage ended with traumatic events which led to #PTSD . Once I began sharing these events, I was bombarded with many repressed memories regarding severe childhood sexual trauma. This ultimately resulted in beginning to deal with things like #Flashbacks #Dissasociation and #bodymemories . I have been having a very difficult time managing the body memories recently. Majority of the time they are there and either lead to a flashback or full-blown dissociation. Anyone have any techniques (grounding or otherwise) they would recommend? Getting really discouraged 😞
#Dissasociation totally needed my system today . Apparently they’ve gone offline because instead of switching or even a hint of passive influence they let me have a panic attack
Does anyone else like just completely take a back seat to themselves? Like for me, i lose feeling in my body completely. Especially in my hands and feet. Everything and everyone feels so far away from me. I can't breathe. Sometimes I am put right back in the fray of where the trauma happened, if someone talks to me I can't actually process that they have said anything... this happens to me so much throughout the day it's not even funny. Anyone else? Looking for a friend. #Dissasociation #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Anxiety #CPTSD #CopingTips #Selfharm #lookingforafriend
I saw something on a show I was watching the other night. It was a #SexualAssault scene. All last year I worked with my therapist doing EMDR. My flashbacks are at bay. But the other night I just went into a full blown #Dissasociation episdoe. My boyfriend helped ground me but I have not felt myself since then. I'm really not sure what to do. I feel like I'm stuck in this #Depersonalization episode that I cant escape from. My #Selfinjury thoughts have also been non stop. If anyone has any tips or ticks. That would be much appreciated. #help
I reached out to emptiness- no one took me serious or could see how I was crying for help from whatever was happening within me.
Further down the line, no one noticed I wasn't on social media. It had become too much to bare, when I used all resources and reached out to people there as well.
Now that this virus has people isolated do they try to find everything possible to communicate. Video chats, phone calls, apps, letters, going for a walk, etc. Do you know how many times I longed for this. How many times I reached out to emptiness!?
Being in a better place, now returned knowing emotions and feeling guilt is the one I experience for feeling upset. I should feel thankful even for the one person reaching out more often but its only their need for me. I'm upset .... sigh.
Open journaling, hoping this helps me stay on track 😩 thanks for letting me vent.
#Anxiety #Derealization #Dissasociation #Depression #Idontwantto #Idontwanttogiveitaname
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