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    Making The Most Out of My Experiences #AbuseSurvivors

    I have been out of the abusive situations for four years now (this being the fourth year). In that time I have learned a lot about people, myself and life in general. During a moment of reflection and mindfulness I realized how blessed I am to have what I have. Sure I came from a broken home but now I have a family that loves, supports and believes in me no matter what. That means a lot to someone that has been invalidated by her own family. I cannot tell you how many tears I've cried, how many questions I've asked or how many scars I gave myself. I can only share the lessons that I have learned so far with you. Those lessons have taught me to make the most of my experience.

    -Abusive families exist.

    -There is nothing wrong with cutting toxic people out of your life.

    -Your experiences are only a part of you but they do not define you.

    -It is okay to ask for and receive help.

    -It is okay to come forward about your experience. Someone will believe you.

    -It is okay to be scared, angry, confused, hurt or any other emotion. They are valid and deserve space.

    -Families aren't perfect.

    -Time always shows a person's true colors in the end.

    -It is possible to be hurt by someone you trusted but this does not make you a bad person.

    -The abuse was not and never will be your fault.

    -Abuse is a choice, someone chose to hurt you.

    -There are consequences for everything.

    -It is okay to be healing one day and to fall apart the next, this does not make you weak.

    -Healing is not linear.

    -Love does not hurt and leave you traumatized. What happened was not love.

    -You can and will heal.

    -It's important to have a support system.

    -Each day is a new opportunity to heal and move forward.

    -It's okay to validate yourself, you are not selfish.

    -You deserve to be heard.

    -Your presence makes a difference (trust me I attempted suicide)

    I hope these lessons can help someone today. As I keep learning, I will post more. Everyday I am working on myself and slowly getting to where I want to be. Again, please stay safe and reach out for help if you need to. You are not alone. I believe in you. Thanks for being here and for believing in me. I appreciate it.

    #SexualAbuse #EmotionalAbuse #SexualAssault #PTSD #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Life #Lessons #coping #Hope #Inspiration

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    TRIGGER WARNING

    So evidently the definitions of sex crimes are a lot broader than originally thought. I have had three sexual partners in my life. According to the technical definitions, all three of them victimized me with #SexualAssault two of them perpetrated #SexualViolence against me and, because of the updated definition, one #Rape d me. This on top of #EmotionalAbuse #NarcissisticAbuse and #emotionalrape by two of them. That on top of my official diagnoses no doubt stemming from the trauma above. Further explanation for why I struggle so much.

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    Support

    Hi! I am looking for those who would like to connect further to be added support for each other. If you're interested, please message me. Below is my history and experience. Thank you!#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #MajorDepressiveDisorder #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #Trauma #Insomnia #Arthritis #ChronicMigraines #cervicogenic Headache #OccipitalNeuralgia #EmotionalAbuse #NarcissisticAbuse #SexualAssault

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    I did it! (Well Kinda)

    Proud of myself today. I was able to make myself stay awake instead of sleeping all day like my #BipolarDepression wants me to do. I was able to stay active and calm and not let my #PTSD get out of hand. Even though I am still under a lot of stress and am very tired I refuse to give in! What are you celebrating today?

    #Depression #Anxiety #PTSD #SexualAbuse #EmotionalAbuse #SexualAssault #AbuseSurvivors #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #littlethings #celebrate #MightyTogether

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    Hanging On By A Thread

    With #BipolarDisorder I can't tell if I'm up or down but I feel like my moods are all over the place. I feel usually frustrated probably because I have to face my abuser soon which will trigger the #PTSD which could possibly result in #Dissociation . I have worked really hard to heal and stay away from toxic people. Now I feel like I'm being set back. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder only complicates things. I already have difficulty with my emotions and being triggered will not help. My #Anxiety is off the charts. I know I am safe and that my fiancé won't let anyone hurt me but it's the thought of being in his presence one more time. I just don't know what to do, my friends are saying rest and be gentle with myself but that seems impossible right now. Honestly, I hope this doesn't push me to #Selfharm because I promised myself I would never do that again. I guess I just need words of encouragement and comfort right now. Thanks guys.

    #Childhoodtrauma #SexualAbuse #EmotionalAbuse #SexualAssault #needhelp #checkin

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    My Experience with PTSD

    I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2019 in a psychiatric hospital after a suicide attempt. I told the psychiatrist that I had been sexually abused and assaulted. I was unaware that I was experiencing PTSD symptoms at the time such as avoidance, nightmares and flashbacks.
    He asked me how I felt about myself because PTSD can make you feel bad about yourself. I did not realize that the abuse I had experienced was that horrific and terrifying. I was too focused on surviving. When I was sexually assaulted I was dissociated and felt disconnected from the situation. Dissociation is another common symptom.
    My PTSD symptoms come and go and I am still learning about my triggers but when I am triggered I feel an impending a sense of dread. My chest tightens and I struggle to breathe. My anxiety is ridiculously bad and sometimes I just want to run away or I lock up and freeze.
    I know these survival mechanisms serve a purpose but I wish I could stop being trapped in survival mode and just live. I have days where even my anxiety medication cannot help. PTSD has changed my life but I’m not sure if it is for the better. It slightly annoys me that I developed this because of what someone else did. But what can I do? I am doing exposure therapy to try and overcome my fears but I still get triggered.
    I just want to be able to not get triggered and not have to be haunted by intrusive thoughts. But again, what can I do? Sometimes I even trigger myself. Again I just wanted to share with a community that understands.
    #PTSD #SexualAbuse #SexualAssault #ChildhoodAbuse #Trauma

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    Living With Three Mental Illnesses

    I was diagnosed with two of my mental illnesses in 2019. Bipolar Disorder and PTSD. I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder a few years ago. It can be a struggle sometimes. I assume I inherited the Bipolar Disorder but I cannot be certain since I know nothing of my medical history since I am adopted. From what I've read though, Bipolar is usually inherited. The emotional ups and downs (literally) of this disorder can be physically and mentally exhausting. My manic and depressed episodes leave me feeling like I can't be stable though this isn't true.

    I feel like I swing between the two states and sometimes I wonder why, since I'm on mood stabilizers. I developed the PTSD from the years of Emotional and Sexual abuse I experienced growing up. When I received that diagnosis (after being in the hospital following a suicide attempt) I didn't really understand. Now I realize it was the right diagnosis.

    The thought that I developed something like that makes me realize how terrified I was and how heinous the abuse was. That it has had a lasting effect on me.

    Borderline Personality Disorder is something I am still researching. The emotional dysfunction just makes the Bipolar worse. I feel like my emotions are all over the place. My reactions are intense. I know this but yet I feel like it triggers the Bipolar. The Bipolar triggers the PTSD which ruins my day. Living with three mental illnesses on a daily basis can be difficult. All the medications and therapy sessions help but some days it's just a lot. The bad mental health days are far in between but sometimes it's a lot to keep up with. I'm sure a lot of you can relate. Wishing you the best.

    #BipolarDisorder #PTSD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #SexualAbuse #EmotionalAbuse #SexualAssault #Childhoodtrauma #MentalIllness #coping #MentalIlnessStrong #MightyTogether #Life

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    Helpless.

    Tried to get into contact with The Crisis Line volunteer didn’t give me his or her name and refused to give me advice or help she / he said.

    I’m more agitated, fidgety, anxious, abandoned, upset, sad, angry, odd man out, irrotational, panicking and unheard.

    #MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PTSD #ADHD #EatingDisorder #SexualAbuse #SexualAssault

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    I’ll Never Understand #MightyPoets

    I’ll never understand why he did what he did to me.
    I’ll never understand why she didn’t protect me.
    I’ll never understand why she abandoned me.
    I’ve been told that it’s better that way- not knowing.
    I’ll never understand why I won’t get an apology or an explanation- I have given up trying.
    I’ll never understand why they chose me.
    I’ll never understand. But maybe that’s the point.
    I’ll just never understand I guess.
    And that’s okay.

    #Abuse #PTSD #SexualAssault #SexualAbuseSurvivors #EmotionalAbuse #abandonment #Poetry #Trauma

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    How do you heal from the wounds of abuse?

    I was emotionally and sexually abused. My abuser was a family member which complicates things. I still struggle with body image issues. Emotionally I still have low self esteem. I’m in therapy and trying my best but sometimes I still struggle. Help would be appreciated.

    #PTSD #SexualAbuse #SexualAssault #EmotionalAbuse

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