Hello all, my name is Emma and I am twenty eight years old. I have been through a plethora of experiences in my life but biggest of all I suffered years of childhood physical and emotional abuse which continued on in my adult years. I also survived an almost none year domestic violence relationship. I deal with severe abandonment, neglect, insecurities and trust issues stemming from these things as well as my biological father playing no role in my life since I was four years old. I have been diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression, suicidal ideation, PTSD and fibromyalgia. I have never yet found a medication that really helps me the way I need it to. I do support cannabis use, it is one thing that has helped me. I have gone through the therapy experience once and was let down honestly. My therapist would cancel on me frequently which was hard for someone struggling like myself, I also felt it was more of a vent session than actual therapy and guidance and growth. I intend of getting help now, but I need help on where to start, what to do and how I can actually process all of this trauma and pain so that I can live a happy and healthy life, not only for myself but for my kids. Any and all advice is welcomed and appreciated, thank you all in advance and I am happy to be starting this experience and knowing I'm going to have support the whole way. It is honestly what I need as my support in my everyday is very limited. #Depression #SuicidalIdeation #Anxiety #PTSD #Fibromyaliga #Trauma #Healing #DomesticViolence #Survivor #warrior #childabusesurvivor #guidanceneeded