Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a complex mental health condition that affects millions of people worldwide. While some symptoms of BPD are well-known, there are also secret symptoms that often go unnoticed. These hidden signs can have a significant impact on the lives of individuals with BPD, as well as their relationships and overall well-being.
One secret symptom of BPD is emotional dysregulation. People with BPD often experience intense and rapidly shifting emotions, which can be difficult to manage. They may go from feeling extreme happiness to deep sadness or anger within a short period of time. This emotional rollercoaster can be exhausting and overwhelming, leading to impulsive behaviors and strained relationships. Another secret symptom of BPD is chronic feelings of emptiness. Individuals with BPD often struggle with a persistent sense of inner emptiness, as if something is missing from their lives. This emptiness can be incredibly distressing and may lead to impulsive behaviors, such as excessive spending, substance abuse, or engaging in risky sexual activities, in an attempt to fill the void. Lastly, individuals with BPD may also experience intense fear of abandonment. This fear can manifest in various ways, such as constantly seeking reassurance and validation from others, becoming overly dependent on others for emotional support, or engaging in self-destructive behaviors as a way to test the loyalty of their loved ones. This fear of abandonment can strain relationships and make it difficult for individuals with BPD to maintain healthy connections with others.in conclusion, while borderline personality disorder is often associated with well-known symptoms such as mood swings and unstable relationships, there are also secret symptoms that are not commonly discussed. Emotional dysregulation, chronic feelings of emptiness, and intense fear of abandonment are just a few examples of these hidden signs. Recognizing and understanding these secret symptoms is crucial in order to provide appropriate support and treatment for individuals with BPD.If you or anyone that you know are silently struggling with a mental health disorder know that you are NOT alone. Reach out for help because there is hope even if you feel like there isn’t!
Conversationally questioning my narcissistic parents for the way they abused me as an undiagnosed child on the spectrum, and watching them run away in fear of facing they’re wrong doings. Too bad I didn’t get to run away as a child though, they demanded I stay put while they basically berated me for being neurodivergent 🙄. It’s oddly cathartic and healing my inner demons. The more I heal the stronger I feel! #narcissisticabusesurvivor #MentalHealth #ChronicIllness #warrior
This is a playlist of my life…here’s some of my favorite songs (it’s extensive!) What songs are your go-to when you are depressed, anxious, overwhelmed, scared, in pain … or feeling great? What would be on the playlist of your life growing up? What are your all time favorite songs? Can you tell what generation I grew up in😉?!? I’ll give you a hint…classic rock & Alt Dance music literally shaped my life (especially when I deejayed in my late teens/20’s)
CARRY ON WAYWARD SON – Kansas
BOHEMIAN RHAPSODY – Queen
THE SPIRIT OF RADIO – Rush
FOOL IN THE RAIN – Led Zeppelin
ROXANNE – The Police
DREAM ON – Aerosmith
PIANO MAN – Billy Joel
MOONDANCE – Van Morrison
PEACE TRAIN - Cat Stevens
IMAGINE- John Lennon
LONG AND WINDING ROAD - The Beatles
LANDSLIDE - Fleetwood Mac
SOLSBURY HILL – Peter Gabriel
ME AND JULIO DOWN BY THE SCHOOLYARD – Paul Simon
DON’T STOP BELIEVIN’ – Journey
PARADISE BY THE DASHBOARD LIGHT - Meat Loaf
TIME WARP - Rocky Horror Picture Show
WALK ON THE WILD SIDE - Lou Reed
HOTEL CALIFORNIA- The Eagles
SULTANS OF SWING- Dire Straits
MAYBE I’M AMAZED – Paul McCartney
SOUL MAN– Blues Brothers
BORN TO RUN – Bruce Springsteen
THE BOYS OF SUMMER – Don Henley
FOREPLAY/ LONG TIME - Boston
BABA O’RILEY - The WhO
FREE BIRD - Lynyrd Skynyrd
FLY LIKE AN EAGLE - Steve Miller
CHINA GROVE – The Doobie Brothers
JOSIE - Steely Dan
TINY DANCER - Elton John
ANOTHER BRICK IN THE WALL, Pt. 2- Pink Floyd
JUMP - Van Halen
THE LOGICAL SONG – Supertramp
COME SAIL AWAY - Styx
COLD AS ICE – Foreigner
SHAKE IT UP – The Cars
I WANNA BE SEDATED - Ramones
IS SHE REALLY GOING OUT WITH HIM - Joe Jackson
WITH OR WITHOUT YOU – U2
JACK AND DIANE – John Mellencamp
WALK THIS WAY - RUN DMC w/ Aerosmith
LIKE A PRAYER – Madonna
EVERYBODY NEEDS SOMEBODY TO LOVE - Blues Brothers - soundtrack
(I’ve had) THE TIME OF MY LIFE - Dirty Dancing soundtrack
MANIAC - Flashdance soundtrack
FOOTLOOSE - Kenny Loggins - soundtrack
ALIVE AND KICKING – Simple Minds
EYE OF THE TIGER - Survivor
BILLIE JEAN (or BEAT IT) – Michael Jackson
WALKING ON SUNSHINE - Katrina and the Waves
COME ON EILEEN - Dexy’s Midnight Runners
RIO - Duran Duran
TAINTED LOVE - Soft Cell
DON’T YOU WANT ME -Human League
WAKE ME UP BEFORE YOU GO-GO – Wham!
IT’S STILL ROCK AND ROLL TO ME - Billy Joel
EVERY BREATH YOU TAKE - Police
FAITH– George Michael (R.I.P)
DANCING WITH MYSELF -Billy Idol
MODERN LOVE – David Bowie (R.I.P.)
WHEN DOVES CRY – Prince (R.I.P)
SHE BLINDED ME WITH SCIENCE – Thomas Dolby
RED RED WINE- UB40
ONCE IN A LIFETIME - Talking Heads
MONEY FOR NOTHING -Dire Straits
ANOTHER ONE BITES THE DUST -Queen
I’M STILL STANDING -Elton John
HIGHER LOVE - Steve Winwood
SWEET CHILD O’MINE -Guns and Roses
LIVIN’ ON A PRAYER - Bon Jovi
SWEET DREAMS (Are Made of This) – Eurythmics
OWNER OF A LONELY HEART - Yes
WHIP IT - Devo
BLISTER IN THE SUN – Violent Femmes
TEMPTED – Squeeze
MIRROR IN THE BATHROOM – The English Beat
DOWN UNDER - Men at Work
IN A BIG COUNTRY – Big Country
YOU SPIN ME ROUND (Like a record) - Dead or Alive
ENJOY THE SILENCE - Depeche Mode
EVERYBODY WANTS TO RULE THE WORLD - Tears For Fears
SLEDGEHAMMER - Peter Gabriel
OUR HOUSE – Madness
CRAZY - Seal
LOVE IS A BATTLEFIELD- Pat Benatar
RUNNING UP THAT HILL (A Deal with God) – Kate Bush
HOLD ME NOW – Thompson Twins
FRAGILE – Sting
TAKE ME HOME – Phil Collins
#MentalHealth #Depression #Anxiety #ChronicPain #ChronicIllness #Selfcare #Selflove #Disability #PTSD #Grief #IfYouFeelHopeless #Hope #Belief #innerstrength #fortitude #Connection #BipolarDisorder #BipolarDepression #Addiction #AddictionRecovery #TheMighty #TheMightyTakeaway #MightyTogether #MightyMusic #Music #Meditation #DistractMe #mentalhealthwarrior #fighter #warrior #Survivor
When’s the last time you gave yourself a pat on the back? You got up today, you fought through your pain, you drank some water or took your medication. You my friend deserve to give yourself some grace. You know the grace you so freely give to others. Stop depriving yourself of kindness to your own body,mind and soul. What would you say to a friend going through your troubles? Here are my ways of being better towards yourself and your outlook about yourself.
#ChronicIllness #Endo #warrior
The strength it takes to push through each day is only understood by the survivors. Unfortunately, the survivors to often feel they have to fight the battle alone and in silence. There is strength in numbers and knowledge is power. The more we share our stories the stronger we are with the knowledge of other survivors and their experiences. #Survivor #Survivors #warrior
If you are a kpop fan or even just a music fan, I recommend listening to You Never Know by Blackpink. It genuinely sounds like an anthem for people with chronic illnesses/disabilities. It really reminded me of the last good days I had back three years ago. It's such an amazing song in general but it sounds like the feelings you feel after a truly devastating life event like getting sick forever.
#ChronicIllness #Fibromyalgia #IrritableBowelSyndromeIBS #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #Depression #Anxiety #Chronicsinusitis #Chronicbronchitis #Spoonie #warrior #MightyTogether
It's hard to keep it all inside, when feelings run so deep,
The pain and fear, the hurt and doubt, all locked inside to keep.
It's easy to feel so alone, when the world just moves on by,
And no one seems to understand, the battles you must fight.
You put on a brave face each day, hiding all that you feel,
Pretending that you're okay, when inside it's not so real.
The weight of it all, so heavy, bearing down on your heart,
And still you soldier on, though it tears you all apart.
But know this, dear one, you are not alone in this fight,
For there are others like you, who also hold things tight.
Who keep their pain concealed, and face the world with grace,
And find a way to carry on, in their own quiet place.
So reach out and connect, and let someone in,
For sharing your struggles, can ease the weight within.
Together we are stronger, and together we can cope,
And lift each other up, when we feel like giving up hope.
I just had the most intimate moment with Jesus I think I've ever had. I am finally beginning to internalize what He actually did for me. I think I am finally falling in love with Him. Now I get it.
Also, today God called me back to my role as intercessory prayer warrior. To be honest I feel like I am jumping off a cliff because the enemy comes after me anyway and my challenges can make it difficult to stand in the face of attacks.
If anyone of you needs prayer, please reach out to me. Evidently my position is to stand in the gap.
I also ask that you keep me in your prayers as well if you are able or if you think about it, specifically prayer for protection.