Hereditary Hemochromatosis

In the past 4 years, I've been diagnosed with #hashimoto 's, #HereditaryHemochromatosis among other diagnoses that cause many symptoms. I also have #treatmentresistant major depressive disorder and insane anxiety. I have failed all depression treatments, spent this year trying #Ketamineinfusions which worked at first and then made me feel like I was losing my mind. I am waiting to be approved by insurance for #tmstherapy. On top of all of this, I have lost my parents due to lack of understanding and wanting to learn. I was told "if I am #suicidal, I should be institutionalized. " by my dad who raised me as the only child and his baby girl. They and my friends know I am suffering in every way and have not offered to help financially, which they could afford it. I am working 7 days a week with debilitating, dead inside depression, 20 symptoms from my illnesses etc just to barely pay some Bill's. I have no one to turn to. My 12 year relationship has been on the rocks for a lolong while. He uunderstands but is losing patience as I have nothing to offer. I am living rent and utility free for now. I get food assistance from a local resource but desperately need help and support. I filed for disability a year ago and have been denied a few times so an aattorney is helping me for the next appeal but only qualify for SSDI. It would be so helpful to have the little amount a month to help pay Bill's and not have to work so much. I am not even 40 and my life for the past 4 years is work and lay down or sleep when home. I used to be crafty, keep our house clean and beautiful, see friends and now I make myself go to work only because I know the consequences. I am so ready to give up. No one understands really how I feel and the ones that have stuck around just say "sorry." Are there any resources that would help in any way? I have reached out to A LOT. I have a psychologist and psychiatrist but it's not enough. A mental hospital isn't going to get my life back and can't afford any time off. Is our country really this broken?

My agoraphobia has gotten so bad that I can’t even use the phone most days, and this week I’ve barely been able to message with close friends. I haven’t set foot outside in two weeks I’m so depressed I wish I was dead, but I don’t want to kill myself. PTSD is getting worse. Two days ago I had heart-pounding anxiety all day. I’ve been sick for more than a year (with no diagnosis) which has exacerbated everything, because I can’t get out of bed most days. I think I’ve figured out what it likely is, something my Docs should have picked up on with the extensive family history they have, along with my ethnic background. And then there are the migraine headaches, as many as four a week now. #Depression #PTSD #Agoraphobia #Anxiety #Fatigue #Arthritis #HereditaryHemochromatosis #CelticKiller