Just ranting about what just happened so feel free to ignore me.
Yesterday we had a family only birthday party for my 12yrs cousin which of course drained my social battery which haven't properly recovered today, not including that I didn't stop since I woke up having to eat breakfast, do an 1 hour walk then go straight to cleaning as chores.
I woke up at 7am and could only pause now at 10am, yet when I asked my grandmother "do you need my help with my brother or can I go shower and rest ?" She went all "you don't need to rest ! Rest from what ?"
I know for her what I did wasn't much but for me it is, I have agoraphobia and social anxiety so staying on groups on itself is draining to me even being family. Currently I am on group therapy and other treatments so I can handle those better but I still can't even speak at the group therapy yet, only a few words at best.
I have been in several treatments for years by now, I made a HUGE progress through all that time which I'm proud of doing. Although there is still much that I cannot do, and some that even when I can do, I need a lot of rest afterwards.
#Ranting #Vent