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No photo to add. Wanted to say good night to my #Mightyfamily #SweetDreams ๐Ÿ˜ด๐ŸŒš๐ŸŒ›๐ŸŒœโญ๐ŸŒŸ and #Goodmorning ๐Ÿ˜‰โ˜€๏ธ๐ŸŒ๐ŸŒž

#Feeling down
#Fibromyalgia
#PhysicallyDrained
#dont want to participate in life
#migriane
#neasau
#Selfcare
#SweetDreams
#dontletbedbugsbites
#heres hoping for goodnites sleep ๐Ÿ˜ด๐Ÿ˜ด

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Exhausted from working hours at the moving company arenโ€™t consistent enough

Itโ€™s after 2am Iโ€™m working an extremely rare night shift at my weekend job itโ€™s a Security company that handles several contracts thank God they love me because Iโ€™m kinda panicking a bit let me explain BPD causes me to do some pretty stupid shit like buying things I really donโ€™t need like I have all the $$$ in the world Iโ€™m learning to get a handle on it but it still does damage Iโ€™m moving next month and we are literally swimming in bills Iโ€™m working like a manic to cover half the rent for next month plus car insurance and rent for the new place my check I just got today went to paying the mechanic to fix my truck just barely covered it Iโ€™m working the moving company when they need me I get a text the day before itโ€™s annoying very difficult to plan things out Iโ€™m door dashing and working my weekend security job kinda hoping this hospital job pans out 3 12 hr shifts and 4 hr training shift per week paid lunch and full hospital benefits plus my 403b should roll over Iโ€™ve been working torwards this for over a year before we even moved here I bust my ass to provide for my family I didnโ€™t ask for any of this shit that was given to me Iโ€™m taking ownership though I cannot change things in the past the only thing I can do is take one day at a time put the work in and keep pushing forward my wife told me today sheโ€™s seen a huge change this week and I havenโ€™t even started therapy yet I have to find the keep the momentum going really just need a solid break

#Working for change #Cant change my past but I can shape my future #heres to my new beginning #I Choose life #Fuckbpd

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