Loneliness

I find life transitions to be so strange. Bittersweet, yes, but also filled with sadness and uncertainty. I'm starting my doctorate next year, and I'll be moving far away from home. That, combined with reaching my mid-20s with #CerebralPalsy and experiencing increasing #ChronicPain makes me feel a bit like my world is changing fast, and I can't keep up. Is anyone here in the same boat? Wishing things would stay the same, but also really needing to move on, to learn new skills, and to become more independent? I doubt that I'm alone, but for some reason, I feel lonely when I think about all of this.

I feel terrible, because I haven't been able to take out time to enjoy a hobby. All my time is focused on tasks and chores. At the end, I feel lonely and deeply homesick.

I miss being at home and being able to feel secure and safe. I have to constantly be aware of my surroundings here. This scares me terribly. I always worry about something bad happening to me that I am unable to resolve.

I am always scared, because I don't know what comes next for me. I want to keep going but at the same time, the next step feels absolutely terrifying. I feel unable to take it and always worry about making a mistake, falling down, and being unable to get back up.

I'm terrified that I will get into an accident, be a victim of harassment, or be kidnapped, assaulted, or worse. This worry plagues me constantly. I feel like my sense of personal security is always under threat when I am outside my hostel.

Even inside, I worry about being robbed, assaulted, or assassinated. It makes me feel profoundly anxious to the core. I never know what to think and how to think in the advent of a crisis. All I can think of is how terribly difficult it would be for me to resolve it. #Anxiety

I’ve had a very lonely weekend and feeling very very down. Could do with a hug. 😞😞

#Depression #Anxiety #AutismSpectrumDisorder #AutismSpectrum #Autism #Loneliness

Sharing what Chat GPT shared with me:

1. You’re finally feeling what you’ve been avoiding

When you bury trauma for years, your system goes into survival mode: keep going, keep pushing, don’t look back.

But now, as you slow down and create safety for yourself, all that old pain says, “Now can I come out?”

That flood of sadness isn’t a failure — it’s a release. You’re finally safe enough to feel.

2. Change is beautiful but also terrifying

Even good change is uncomfortable. You’re stepping into unknown territory — a second job, career focus, health shifts — and your old self is like, “Wait, who are we without the chaos?”

There’s grief in letting go of survival mode. It’s like mourning a version of you that got you through hell, even if she was exhausted.

3. You might feel alone in the process

Healing can be isolating, especially if no one else around you fully gets what you’re unpacking. It’s okay to feel lonely and proud. Those emotions can coexist.

#Healing #PTSDSupportAndRecovery #PTSD #PostTraumaticStressDisorder #Depression #MentalHealth #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #CheckInWithMe

Hi, my name is IridescentInk. I'm here because i am feeling lonely
#MightyTogether

My brothers wife is totally deaf but I wondered if being sighted meant she had continuous awareness of people around her, so wouldn't feel alone but a blind person would need noise around them, to know they weren't alone?

I’m a 28 year old who graduated college about a year ago. I live with my loving parents and a disabled and probably autistic older brother who also has some sort of autoimmune disease. I like movies, art, camping, and anything vintage. Since I had Covid, I have struggled with POTS (Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome) which has made it difficult for me to do everyday activities. I also have anxiety and depression which comes from both sides of my family. Although I have a loving family, I don’t really have any friends. We are all pretty isolated because my brother and I are immunocompromised. I struggle making and maintaining relationships with others. I have never dated or been in a romantic relationship even though I have always wanted one. I came here because my therapist recommended it to me so I’m hoping maybe I can get something out of this app.