Loneliness

Hi, my name is Ali. I'm a mother of 3. My daughter, Bea, is 17, and lives with a whole concoction of diagnoses. Most prevalent being Schizoaffective disorder and AuDHD. She’s so isolated, and lonely. I had encouraged her to seek out friendships in local groups, but finds it very difficult to maintain friendships, as no one else understands what it’s like to live with these diagnoses. So, I’m here looking for ways to help her find friends that can relate to her.

#MightyTogether

I've dealt with depression multiple times before, and I'd generally say I manage it quite well , I potentially have BPD too, but I function fairly well overall these days. In the past few months, I've recognised that I've been a bit lonely and withdrawn, but I actually felt pretty good , especially compared to a big depressive dip a few months back ...or at least I thought I did.

It's hard to explain. I don't know who I've been. I'm confused and questioning everything. It's foggy trying to think about how I've actually been acting or feeling day to day.

I've always had an active imagination and used daydreaming as a coping mechanism, for as long as I can remember , that part isn't new. But I think my inner monologue and my daydreaming have turned into something else now, something louder, more consuming, less like a coping tool and more like it's taking me over. That said, this isn't just about the daydreaming , it's part of a bigger picture where I feel like I've been acting like a different version of myself these past few weeks in ways I'm only now noticing, and it's affecting my relationships and my sense of who I am.

I'm anxious and paranoid that I'm losing touch. I've been crying a lot, multiple times privately, and finding it hard to act normal around people, scared of seeming weird, or that I'll suddenly lose it and start crying or have a panic attack in front of someone. Right now I feel like I'm fully breaking down, and it's scary.

This all came into focus last night while I was high, experiencing intense emotions and fear — I had a sudden realisation that I haven't been myself for the past few weeks. Even in the moment, I was aware it could just be the drugs talking, and I told myself to wait until I was sober before deciding how real it was. But now I'm sober and I still feel exactly the same. That's what's really scaring me — this isn't going away now the high has worn off, and this realisation, brand new as of last night, has put me into a scary, anxious, paranoid, panicky state I haven't been able to shake since.

I don't have anyone close by to talk this through with right now, which is part of why I'm posting here. I'm scared and I don't know how to put this into words for the people around me.

Any advice, similar experiences, or just a sanity check would help

#MentalHealth #Depression #CheckInWithMe

Hi, my name is GAMamma. I'm here because
I just turned 60 yesterday and have been feeling really down even while taking my antidepressants. I don’t feel in control and can’t shake myself out of this feeling. Two weeks ago we put our very ill GSD which hasn’t helped. My disconnected marriage of 31 years has left me pretty lonely. I have been a at home mom and have two adult children, one is married and the other working full time and is still at home with us. I am in some sort of pain everyday. I live in the Deep South and when the temp is reasonable, I spend a lot of time in my garden. I haven’t participated in four different church ministries in a while. I have started horseback riding again and am working on a schedule for lessons as it’s been years. I haven’t felt like this in almost 20 years and I’m scared. I do know and appreciate that I have a lot going for me, such as my family, my critters, and my home. I don’t know how to get out of this slump. I do have an appointment with my GP next week and hopefully she’ll have some good suggestions for me. Thank you! #MightyTogether #Depression #Migraine #Fibromyalgia #AutismSpectrumDisorder #ADHD

Hi, my name is TulusMarbun. I'm here because it's been three months since i have severe depression, the couple of weeks has been the worst. I feel so lonely even thoug i have many friends and family. I want to have my own family (that's my trigger). Everytime i see my friends who already has family of their own i feel so sad and depressed. I really don't know what to do. I don't have any coping mechanism.

#MightyTogether #Depression #Anxiety

Hi, my name is CompassionatePhoenix. I'm here because I am looking for others who can relate to what I am experiencing. I am a late diagnosed woman with AuDHD and I struggle immensely with C-PTSD. It has been a long and painful journey over the last two decades of trying to better understand myself. I have been in and out of therapy for years and my diagnosis has changed over that time. Originaly I was diagnosed with GAD and MDD in my early 20’s. Later, after I served in the Army I was also diagnosed with PTSD but after my own extensive research I came to understand what I actually have is C-PTSD. My ADHD diagnosis came around the age of 37 but only after my son was diagnosed. I was officially diagnosed with Autism level 1 last year at the age of 41. I am high masking with a CAT-Q score of 150 and that is why I was overlooked for so long. Since finding that last puzzle piece of ASD I have been struggling with unmasking and isolating. My walls have gone way up and I am incredibly lonely and feel like nearly everyone in my life just chronically misunderstands me. I am married, and he is a wonderful partner who has been incredibly supportive but I crave a connection to people who truly get it and I’m afraid that I lean to hard on my spouse. I need to find my community and make some friends because currently I do not have any. That is why I am here.

#MightyTogether #AutismSpectrumDisorder #PTSD #ADHD #Anxiety #Depression #c-PTSD #audhd #latediagnosed

Hi, my name is mommapat. I'm here because I stumbled on the post about signs you grew up chronically lonely. This encapsulates so many of my thoughts and feelings and makes complete sense now. This seems like it should have been patently obvious, but has taken me into my later years to finally figure out.

#MightyTogether #Grief