Loneliness

Hi, my name is SalingerSunset. I'm here because I live with chronic pain, am on permanent disability and am lonely without people to talk to.
Most people turn away from you when you are disabled. They don't even know they're doing it, but they do. They see you as a future burden. Someone who might ask for rides to the doctor, money for bills, or who knows what else. That's one side of it, anyway.The Other side is people wanting to be my friend because of the medication I am on. Wanting to be above and beyond nice and kind to you, which feels incredible, until they cannot stop talking about how much their knee hurts. How they wish this awful toothache would end. How the doctor would give them no medication for that pain, and can you believe that?
Frankly, I almost prefer being completely ignored to that because it kills your hope that people might want to be friends with you just to be friends. A symbiotic relationship of each helping and supporting the other without calculating what they can get from it.
Hopefully people like that are still kicking around this planet. Maybe I'll meet one here. #MightyTogether #Migraine #PTSD #ADHD #OCD #Grief #Anxiety #Depression

I knew this at age 3, and I was extremely lonely, and it was an emotionally cold feeling in my house... until dad came around for a few hours and left for a few days. #CPTSD #PTSD #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Trauma #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder

Hello, I am new to this app, but my name is Nash. I’m 16 years old I feel like every single day is just a loop every single day I go to school And honestly, it’s straining my mental health. It’s too much homework And I never wanted to go to school because I was so scared of the work or getting bullied People say things about me and they say it’s just a joke, but I don’t feel that type of way I don’t really have that much friends at all I’m a bit lonely I mean, I have some friends, but sometimes I feel like everybody is not my friend which is true When I come back home, I don’t even do my homework because I’m so tired of always thinking about problems overnight then the next thing is I feel like I waste my break days by just doomscrolling and I wanna lose weight and there’s other things I wanna talk about but that’s all I’m sorry. I’m just feel really upset right now.

“Something has changed within me. Something is not the same. I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game. Too late for second-guessing. Too late to go back to sleep. It's time to trust my instincts…
I'm through accepting limits ‘cause someone says they're so. Some things I cannot change but, til I try, I'll never know. Too long I've been afraid of losing love, I guess I've lost. Well, if that's love, it comes at much too high a cost…Everyone deserves the chance to fly. And if I'm flying solo, at least I'm flying free…”

“Don’t try to take this from me…Feels like I’m waking from the dead…I thought we could brave it all. I never thought that what would take me out was hiding down below. Lost the battle, win the war. Bringing my sinking ship back to the shore…starting over. There’s a time and a place to die, but this ain’t it. If there’s a future, [I] want it…[I] have some memories…they will remind me not to make the same mistakes again…”

“It got progressively harder to miss you…”

“[you say this is love]…but I’m still gone…I’ve got to make my peace. I’ve got to move on…[I had to wake up. I’ve] got the right to choose….[I’ve] got the right to choose. Real love, I wanna feel…real love. True love,…I wanna know what it means to really be loved “

“Reborn and shivering. Spat out on new terrain. Unsure, unconvincing, this faint and shaky hour. Day one, day one, start over again. Step one, step one, I am barely making sense, for now. I'm faking it 'til I'm pseudo making it…from scratch, begin again, but this time I as I. And not as We. Gun shy and quivering. Timid, without a hand. Feign brave with steel intent…Day one, day one, start over again. Step one, step one, with not much making sense, just yet. I'm faking it 'til I'm pseudo making it…from scratch. Begin again, but this time I as I, and not as We…”

“All the lonely shadow dances…It’s a solo song…only for the brave.”

“She was wise, full of magic and light. You could see it in her eyes….I saw it in her eyes”

“No need to hide little morning bird. You’re grown now. It’s safe now for your return…Bring all of you, broken pieces [too]…What you’re seeking’s been inside of you…don’t you change your tune. Show us the world from your own point of view. The more that you sing out the better we’ll be. Color us brighter with what you have seen…Bring all of you. What you’re seeking’s been inside of you…”

“There is a light at the end of the tunnel…’Cause now I know…there is a light inside of me. There was a shadow of a doubt but, baby, it’s never going out. There is a light inside of me”
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“Just because you’re sad or grieving doesn’t mean you’re not grateful. And it doesn’t mean you’re not hopeful. Sadness is the soul’s way of saying, ‘This mattered.’ “

“If something so impossibly catastrophic and unimaginably awful can happen, then doesn’t it also mean that something impossibly beautiful and impossibly redemptive can happen?”

“I can’t say what will happen. But I can tell…[and] show [myself] what is possible”

#Relationships #EmotionalAbuse #manipulation #Grief

#MentalHealth #MensMentalHealth #healingjourney #olderandwiser #MentalHealthAwareness #menandmentalhealth #growth #PeaceOfMind #resilience #keeppushing #healingtakestime #emotionalstrength

I woke up today feeling something I haven’t felt in a long time #peace . Not the kind that comes from everything going right but the kind that comes when you finally stop fighting what’s out of your control.

As an older man, life has taught me lessons I didn’t ask for. I’ve walked through anger, loneliness, disappointment and silence that could swallow a person whole. I used to carry everything inside, thinking it was strength until it started breaking me quietly.

There was a time I couldn’t recognize myself. My temper was short, my patience even shorter. I pushed people away without meaning to. I told myself I was fine when, deep down, I was falling apart. But age has a way of softening a man. It humbles you. It teaches you that healing isn’t about forgetting the pain; it’s about learning to live beyond it.

These days, I take things slower. I listen more. I spend more time outside, breathing in moments instead of rushing through them. My mind still gets loud sometimes but now I know how to quiet it with prayer, reflection and gratitude for simply being alive.

I’m not fully healed yet but I can say this: I’m no longer who I was. And maybe that’s enough for today.

If you’ve ever been through a similar journey; if you’ve had to rebuild yourself quietly... I’d love to hear how you found your peace too.

Jesus Is Patient

Jesus is patient with us when
Jesus is patient with us when we are going through a hard time
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Jesus is patient with us when
Jesus is patient when we are sick or hurt
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Jesus is patient with us when
Jesus is patient when we are overwhelmed or sad
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Jesus is patient with us when
Jesus is patient we are tired or lonely
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