neurodivergence

Yes, I quit my job without notice and no, I don't regret it. But, after 3 interviews in as many weeks went well enough that I expected an offer, only to end up ghosted, I suspect I'm being blacklisted. I was admittedly one of their best employees for almost 5 years. And yes, quitting without notice comes with consequences, but still. I can't prove it just yet, but I sure as hell wouldn't put it past her after all the reasons I quit in the first place. #Anxiety #anger #Depression #neurodivergence #Employment

So, I quit my job on July 1st. The pay and benefits were unmatched, but the manager had it out for me and eventually succeeded in screwing me over so badly, my only real option was to walk. I have slight pangs of guilt for doing it occasionally, but I know it was the only choice I had.

My Mom (main source of transportation) is going to Scotland in August, which was delayed 3 years because of Covid. She said, she's completely fine with it if I don't even look for work, or start until she gets back, since getting to a new job would be a huge pain. I won't have vacation time yet, if I even get it, and it's long enough that I wouldn't want to get hired and then drop that on them, unless they agreed to move the start date. And, she let me pause the amount of money I give her every month for July and August.

This is literally my childhood dream here. Do whatever I want, have permission to be unemployed and not contribute financially, to not even have to look for a job for 6 weeks. And I HATE IT.

I think I'm mostly just bored. It's not even about the money, because if I had a new job, I wouldn't want to go to it any more than I wanted to go to the last one. Maybe it's the lack of security. Even when I hated my job, I had a job and some amount of money coming in. I've applied to a few that were either too close to my qualifications or the benefits were too good to at least try for. But, I'm MISERABLE and it doesn't make sense. Maybe it's just change and uncertainty and I've always hated those, or the fact that I'm taking a pay cut no matter what, or I still can't believe the sweet deal I had to give up for the sole reason that my manager is an idiot. #Anxiety #Depression #neurodivergence #Employment

In the last 3 days I've walked out on a potential new eye Dr. (luckily the issue I needed the appt. for resolved itself), been flooded with ever-intensifying family drama over my grandma's estate, been ghosted by no less than FOUR employers, and been completely STRIPPED of my reproductive RIGHTS. Then blocked my dad on social media as a result of his choice to focus on "protests, property damage" and conspiracy theories instead of his only child's right to autonomy over MY OWN BODY. Add the fact that this was the week I was scheduled for ONE shift at work, and I just F***king can't anymore. #CheckInWithMe #Depression #Anxiety #Disability #neurodivergence #Stress

"Constructive termination" is when an employer forces you out of your job, so you quit and they don't have to fire you. Unless you have evidence that you're being forced out by illegal or unsafe practices, you have no leg to stand on (and it wouldn't be worth pursuing either way.) But, I'm not crazy or imagining it, and after almost 5 years, I expected better. I said from the beginning though, "It's not the company, it's the manager!" And based on how many ling-term employees have the same story, been demoted, or run for the hills in the year since a new one has taken over, I'm not the only target. How higher ups haven't called BS yet is a mystery to me, unless they're the ones giving the orders. But, based on details I won't bore you with, I don't think that's the case. #Disability #Employment #neurodivergence #Anxiety #Depression #Stress

I was passed over for the same job for the second time in 6 months, and again without a single word. And they made the new manager tell me so they wouldn't have to deal with the fact that they pissed me off. The only reason I didn't walk is because he's completely innocent and didn't deserve that. But, nearly 5 years of dedicated service only to end up screwed in return. No thanks. He said to give him the weekend to talk to the GM to see what he could do. I'm only doing it because, like I said, he had nothing to do with this and has been nothing but nice to me. I've already lost count of the number of applications I've filled out since I got home. Enough is enough, it's time to move on. And nobody is allowed to suggest I'm being paranoid about stuff like this EVER again. #Depression #Anxiety #Disability #neurodivergence #Employment

The promotion I was originally passed over in favor of nepotism is available again. This time I saw it and applied. I don't work again until Thursday morning so my plan is to change my availability first thing and then talk to either the GM or HR. This is going to go one of two ways, either they offer it to me, or I quit on the spot. I know that sounds petty and immature, but since I ended up staying after last time, I know the excuses they gave me were complete bulls***. Passing me over once was bad enough, doing it twice for literally no reason, after 5 years of service is unforgivable. Not to mention, that someone else getting the hours would mean mine would be cut below a livable amount permanently, and there would be no reason to stay. I want to be optimistic, but this could end very badly. I already applied to a handful of jobs so that if I do quit I have some applications floating around out there. #Anxiety #Depression #neurodivergence #Employment #Stress

Probably more in my almost 34 years on this planet. And if you also have a #Disability I'm guessing you have too. You get called in to a meeting with the authority figure(s), because despite your best efforts, whatever task you've undertaken, whether chosen or required, is beyond your capabilities in some way or another. If it's voluntary, they try to talk you into quitting, either nicely, or not. Listing all your "great qualities" saying you're a likable person and they hate having to do this. Or, tearing you down until you quit just to escape the borage of insults being launched at you. If you don't quit, they let you go. If it's required, you get plastered with every character judgement in the book in hopes you'll "grow up" or "get better" because there's no way around or out of your impossible tasks. Lucky for me, today was the former. But, it doesn't change the fact that I knew exactly what I was walking into, because I had heard it all before. Welcome to life disabled, unfortunately, I don't know if the pattern will ever end. #Anxiety #neurodivregent #Employment #Depression #neurodivergence

I've already been training twice as long as normal and they're pressuring my trainer to end the training, but I still can't handle things on my own, especially when it gets crazy busy. That just puts pressure on my coworkers to pick up the slack. I majorly messed up and she asked "What are you going to do when you're by yourself" and I straight up said "Freak out and quit." I disclosed my #Disability in case they can come up with some reasonable accommodation(s) that might help, but I have no idea what they might be. If it doesn't work, it doesn't work, but if they can figure something out, then I'm entitled to it. Otherwise, it's just one more thing this diagnosis has cost me and another time hearing "We like you, but it's not working, it's nothing you did, just get out." And this is how it's going to be for the rest of my f***ing life. My mom said "You got this job, you can get another." Yeah, but for how long? Why do I even bother? Add hormones to the mix and I've either been crying or on the verge of tears for hours. And I have to go back tomorrow.#Depression #Anxiety #neurodivergence #Employment

So, I got hired for a 16-hour a week job at an assisted living. The 10.5 would've been better, but this works too. Unlike last time, I don't want to run out screaming, and this place seems really nice. Just have to get a physical and fingerprints tomorrow and a drug screen at orientation on Monday (They should really warn you about a urine sample! Just saying) Hopefully, this job goes better. #Anxiety #Depression #neurodivergence #Employment