LonelyPain

I treat everyone with open arms, and I have a very open mind, I care too deeply for others that couldn't give a darn about me. I have no friends, my siblings treat me like the plague, My loving husband is overwhelmed with me. He is a Saint for putting up with me. I am so Blessed to have him,
BUT, What do you do when hardly anyone cares about you? I need support. I mean I do have people in my life that can "dump" all there stuff on me, but let me try to tell them about my pain and all. Well they all of a sudden have to go. I'm so over being in bad pain all the time.
#MightyTogether

seems these days that being a nice person only brings pain and sorrow. I have thought about suicide multiple times. Threw myself on drugs. (Cocaine and weed) so I dont have to think about how lonely and pointless my life is. I am rich and beautiful. I have a family who loves me. What more can I ask for? Loving the wrong people destroyed me. I have ups and downs. Not taking too many drugs anymore but theres is this paon in my chest that just won’t go away. Its been years. I am suffering continuesly but don’t know how to make it stop. People find me ridiculous because I should be the happiest person on earth. Noone understands truly. I am simply a much compassionate/ sensitive and empathic person. I suffer 10000 times more than normal people because I feel more. Hence i started to do drugs in order to feel less and being able to live normally
#MightyPoets

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