Good news: I am learning. Yes!
Yesterday, I was completely off from all activities and rested solely as a means of recovery. So I started my typical early morning panic as I hear the city’s commuters filling the streets. I need to get active! Right.😵💫!
So, I decided to write down—and out—my racing thoughts. Suddenly, I stopped writing and trying to analyze my emotions as I told myself, “Hey, I don’t have time to do this, I am missing out on my agenda. I have some resting to do.” 👏👏👏!
And for the first time during this eight month medical leave, I realized, the goal of the leave is to stop thinking, analyzing, lamenting, figuring out a workout regime, and stop playing app games that require problem solving according to times I once set. I am learning that I have one goal on my agenda: rest, rest, rest my brain.
So now I sit waiting for a bus, today, after taking a wonderful walk outdoors. I completed errands that felt more like fun adventures as time was NOT the goal of this outing. And I even watched my bus pass the store I was in, as I talked to the cashier, simply to talk, and not to hurry them up so I can run and flag down the bus to return home to accomplish……what….nothing.
This means, I am at rest even when commuting through an active city’s streets. And THAT is #themighty reward I have gained since being introduced to #selfcare on this site.
#thankyou!