Hi I found this app off a social media. Ive had some screwed up experiences with the mental health system #Crisis . its been about 4 years since my story all started. I started typing my story starting from 2015. but I thought what if no-one reads. I want to help anyone and everyone as much as I can. #Support #mystoryisntoveryet #Hospital I will post soon ive been typing it for days now. #Depression #PTSD #Anxiety
During my first year of middle school when I was in the six grade I was only 12 years old I was bullied severely for a whole year during sixth grade. This one year during my childhood has affected me every day since I left that school. I was tortured by the other kids in my grade just made fun of for literally everything that they could think of my skin color my hair and I wait I hate anything and everything and when they couldn’t find something to make fun of me for they would make up something. I was called every name that you could possibly think of they came up with some of the most creative insults I grew up on a farm which most of these kids knew because they would see me get off the school bus at the farm. So when I went walking to school they would all turn and say do you smell cow shit referring to me of course. The bullying went on for a whole year I felt so alone even the teachers bullied me it got so bad that I started having anxiety attacks during school I would break out in hives all over my arms and face I wouldn’t be able to breathe. At first my parents thought that I was allergic to something so I went through numerous testing to see what I was allergic to for doctors finally came to the conclusion that I had severe anxiety disorder and that what I was experiencing was panic attacks. That was when I first started to self harm during that year. Finally at the end of the school year my parents were able to transfer me to a different school where I was never believe that badly again of course at my new school I had the occasional mean girl but it was nothing compared to having over 100 kids make fun of you every single day. Today I’m 20 years old and I still have flashbacks from when I was 12-year-old kid in middle school I still hear their voices telling me to just go home and kill myself because no one would care anyway. So many people don’t understand that mental illness is not always something that you’re just born with. People don’t realize that the words that you say can cause harm not only that day but for the rest of someone’s life. People don’t realize that PTSD is more than something that those in the military get. Anyone who has been through something traumatic can have PTSD and what is traumatic to you is not always what is traumatic to someone else. #mystory #mystoryisntoveryet #Bullying #Pledge2EndBullying #Depression #Anxiety #PTSD #Understandme
BURNING
HAIR PULLING
HAIR PLUCKING(EYEBROWS, EYELIDS, PUBES ETC)
BINGING
PURGING
RESTRICTING
AVOIDING
CUTICLE CHEWING
PICKING
ABRUPTLY STOPPING MEDICATION
CARVING
HEAD BANGING
PUNCHING
DRUGS
ALCOHOL
SLEEP
SEX
*this is not a complete list of behaviors.
COMMON EMOTIONS TRIGGERING SELF HARM
GUILT
SHAME
ANGER
IRRITABLE
CONFLICTED
*this is not a complete list of emotions triggering self-harm.
*IF IT ISN’T EFFECTING YOUR DAY TO DAY SELF, THAN IT MAY NOT BE CONSIDERED SELF HARM. SELF HARM IS INTENTIONAL AND AT TIMES A COMPULSION.
#Selfharm #Cutting #selfmutilation #badhabbits #MentalHealth borderlinepersonalitydisorder #Depression
#Bipolar #Anxiety #rebel #EndTheStigma #mystoryisntoveryet #Suicide
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