Hey everybody, nice to be here & have a space to share my current thoughts & mood, & maybe get some feedback from others who can relate to me. In a nutshell, I am a 35 yr. old mother of 2 & a full- time virtual student, & have been diagnosed wt bipolar 1 & GAD for 6 years. For the past 3 yrs I have been on a pretty solid med regime, have been sober for 2 & pretty much doing amazing. Only here will I also admit I have an ED which I have had for 25 years & just really do not seem to know how to beat. — Anyways, the past couple of weeks, & especially the past couple of days have been extra rough on me & I just feel like I have so much going on in my brain that hasn’t been an issue for years. I am getting frustrated bc I am tired a lot & find it hard tk stay awake during the days to do schoolwork, & I really wonder if it’s due to the high amount of medication I am on. I take lithium, seroquel, topimax, & stratera; the lithium I take twice a day. All of thise have a side effect of drowsiness, so no wonder I can’t stay awake even if I drink buckets of caffeine, right? Then I start getting upset that I even have to take all those medications, & I don’t want to have to do this my whole life. I have always been med- compliant, but now I feel like stopping. I know I can’t quit cold turkey, but can anyone else relate? I also have pica and it’s been out of control the past two weeks. I do not have health insurance to see my therapist, but I started looking into that today. I can’t believe almost exactly 6 years ago I was in the mental hospital barely getting the correct diagnosis, & even just months ago I felt like i was at the best point ever, & now last night I was skipping meds, crying in the bathroom about how I can’t stand being me, & not sleeping for the night because my brain is mush again. Anyways. I think I got off topic. I really do want to know if there is a point when we reach “too much” on our meds and need to go back down to the minimum. That’s all. Thanks.