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Hi, my name is Hayley I'm here because
my whole life has been a struggle. I was diagnosed with ADHD at 6 but my parents gave in to the pressure of the sigma around ADHD and stopped my medication. I was then diagnosed with depression at 8 and grew up thinking that was my identity and doctors “tried” to diagnose with me ADHD when I was just depressed. I’m now 30 and have been diagnosed with ADHD again only last year, this time on my terms and my belief. my life is still a constant struggle and I often wonder if I’ll ever be truely happy. I still suffer from depression and PMDD, which i am surprised it wasn’t listed in the mental health condition when signing up. PMDD is real and it’s more likely to affect women with ADHD as we are more sensitive to natural hormonal fluctuations. just when I thought I’d found the cause to all my problems, I was then diagnosed with PCOS. although it was hard dealing with PMDD, I had figured out exactly when I was going to struggle just by tracking my cycle. but now with PCOS my cycles are irregular and I just feel all over the place, I’ve become extremely emotional and cry very easy now. doctors constantly tell me to just take the pill, to which I refuse to as it makes my symptoms worse, I tried the mirena for a year and I look back now and wondered how I survived, it made me extremely suicidal and I had constant disturbing thoughts. I have 3 children. 2 girls and 1 boy. my 5 year old son has just been diagnosed with ADHD and he has recently become extremely aggressive and abusive. my girls I also suspect have ADHD but to get anyone to listen is a different story as they mask their symptom’s just like I do. I constantly feel like my family would be better off without me and that it’s my fault my kids are now struggling with life too. my husband is nuero typical and i often feel like I’ve just ruined his once peaceful life. I sometimes wish I never met him so he could have a happier life, I also sometimes wish I knew before having kids that ADHD and depression are hereditary. I’m sick and tired of fighting everyday to get support for myself or my kids. especially my son, I have constantly been told he is too complex and people don’t have the qualifications or skills to deal with him. so if there’s no one that can help us what are we meant to do? I’m exhausted from fighting for happiness.
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