How do you all deal with constant fear?
Hi, group. I’ve struggled with even posting here since I joined. I deal with constant fear and anxiety from #CPTSD . I was abused as a child and then my first relationship was 3 years with a malignant narcisstic who still harasses me after 15 years of being apart. Because of my conditioning, I’ve been in several other long-term trauma situations. I struggle deeply with constant fear, flashbacks, invasive thoughts, night terrors/nightmares of my abusers, and have dealt with constant trauma for the span of my life. Sometimes it’s so difficult to deal with the feelings and terror in my head that I’m constantly dizzy and exhausted, my stomach always hurts and I can’t lose weight because of constant cortisol surges, which doesn’t help how I feel about myself. I’m married to a good man now, but I still struggle terribly. He is amazing, but it’s hard sometimes because he can’t totally understand me and my situation/feelings/fears, and psychosomatic symptoms. It’s hard to find people who can empathize in any way. I have two therapists, but I was looking for a safe place to connect with other people who can relate to my situation and I found this place. Hoping I made the right choice and that I can connect with some of you. Thank you for taking the time to read! #PTSD #CPTSD #Anxiety #panic #PsychosomaticSymptoms