I’ve been browsing online the last few days, trying to understand what’s been going on in my head, and I came across quiet bpd. I don’t know much about it, beyond what’s on the Internet, and I don’t want to assume that the internet is correct, so I’m asking a few questions here to see if quiet bpd is something I should discuss with a therapist or if there are just similarities between quiet bpd and what is going on in my head. (Sorry if I end up using incorrect terms or anything, I’m brain-dead, tired, confused, and overwhelmed, so I might not be thinking clearly enough to correctly explain things.
Anyways, online I’ve seen splitting often described as people being put into “categories” of almost a “good vs bad, love vs hate” etc. So I guess I have a couple of questions, is it only two “categories” or can it be more than two? Can splitting be applied to things other than people, like to situations or environments or events or acting?
And my main question that is more directly connected to what’s going on in my head, can splitting basically be having these people that you love and adore and love spending time with and everything, and then it just shuts off, the part of you that’s emotionally connected to these people just shuts off. It’s not that you suddenly hate these people or you think they’re bad or going to necessarily hurt you or anything, but your emotions towards them just.. switch off. Maybe the majority of your emotions have also shut off simultaneously due to overwhelming emotions or situations, or maybe the emotions directly linked to the person/people have just shut off. Maybe there is a subconscious fear of abandonment and/or being emotionally vulnerable. Maybe there’s a fear of being a burden on them or them actually hurting you somehow.
Can that still be considered splitting, the divide between consciously loving these people and wanting to be around them and feeling emotionally connected with them vs feeling nothing or possibly a few trace negative feelings that may or may not be connected to those people.
Sorry for a bit of a ramble, I’m just trying to figure out my own head, and get a better understanding of quiet bpd so I can know whether or not I should look into this with a therapist.
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