sometimes

Sometimes, I feel content in my sadness. Sometimes, I’d rather feel numb than to feel everything intensely. Sometimes it’s the other way around. This morning, I kept telling myself that someone abandoned me and that I should just give up on expecting things from people period. Everyone seems to have their reasons for leaving. I personally feel that it’s because they got bored of me, or that they were only around to lead me to think that I could trust them and they told their new friends about me and whatever private information I’ve told them. Or simply because I’ve become unlike able to them after a short time. Either way, everyone wins while I lose another battle where everyone else except me knows who wins. Lately, I’ve been wondering why I’m still alive. I wonder why I still hold on to people who are too busy entertaining other people. Why do I feel like I should die whenever I feel rejected or left behind? I’ve got many questions, and probably two answers. #MentalHealth #Depression #SuicidalThoughts #IntenseFeelings #intenseemotions #PeoplePleaser #peopleleave #sometimes #Sadness #numbness to everything #holdingontopeople #reasonstoleave #Catch22 #WhyAmIHere #Rejection

I’ve tried listening to music and breathing. #Sleep #little bit of aniexty #sometimes making a mental to do list isn’t helpful but my mind keeps doing just that.

Sometimes you wake up and no amount of medication can make your brain better. Sometimes you want to crawl into your closet but can’t even muster the energy to do it. You fight tears all day. You make yourself look “normal”. You fight and fight and it doesn’t get better.

I try not to complain because well some people have it worst... right But can I scream when I am in pain too I mean this stuff is painful ... .too painful to describe I digress.... I am thankful #sometimes
#Endometriosis