Traumatic Brain Injury

He pretended to be clueless and confused today, https://again.I was already in a panic state to him coming home.it is https://bad.I have confirmation now, that his friend decided to hack everything and this has, been happening for over a https://year.I am livid..I have proof now and I feel like it is 100times more sick,than I https://imagined.I find out about the house https://soon.The chance of them letting it go are https://slim.I warned him and he became angry,asked too many specific questions when I https://flipped.Each time, I caught https://it.Within two hours both me and my sons phones were acting https://up.Then another txt acting and attacking https://me.These people have no idea how hard I will fight for what is https://mine.I spent years,never having anything scheduled, no celebrations,no family traditions,no safety for my https://son.Absolutely no protection,at https://all.He wanted me to stray,pushed me, made plans, arrangements and then became my enemy,when I told him I always,chose https://him.Saddest story of a marriage I've ever https://heard.He had the man have his friends hit on me,say things as I walked by,follow me,endlessly.He has full links to my https://family.His own mother told me to take the money and https://run.She told me the truth last year, moved away and now states she never told me that.it is munipulation and lack of courage from my https://husband.He did the same thing to me twenty four years https://ago.I can't believe I took him back, let him raise my son, put me last for sixteen years, and I let https://him.He know said he never loved me.
His male friends and their wives,can, have https://him.He is going to play IT his way, as he always https://has.He wasted my time and spirit,instead of being https://honest.I will never forgive these https://people.And I will fight,just as I always https://have.I built this house with https://him.I sweat,bled for nothing but a ceiling over my head,which he feels is enough for https://us.A unfinished house that triggers his family, so much that they leave...They told https://him.They told him and he'd promised but he can only still give the minimum and make sure his reputation https://stands.He didnt care and noone can ever know the https://truth.His pride,bigger than his empathy or https://family.He truly does not https://care.He was told how to hurt me and two years I have taken it. BUT,now I'm out,completely.Everything he has done has been https://exposed.From spending,gambling,lying,avoiding family and the sabotaging munipulation is the saddest display I have ever https://saw.He believed if I have the capacity in one area Im faking my TBI,and AVM https://issues.His peers are ignorant,loyal to a fault, to my diagnosis and where I am in therapy.my sessions were listened to through zoom.it is unrepairable and grounds for divorce times ten!He has no clue what he has https://done.He was not allowed to touch the settlement and he https://did.He knew what he was doing prior to a separation. He wanted separate, he knew you cannot sell your house with a dependant on disability,without informing them,ecspecially when one is seeking a https://seperation.He knew about the studio and slipped,everything has been orchestrated in my https://life.He has changed the narrative to imply a dissociative mental state every two weeks,to me, as if I don't live it every second of every https://day.How can a person do this to someone?And expect them to walk away without their tail between their legs?

I have a terrible memory.I always have.I am unable to retrieve when I try, retaining,a major issue but rather scattered by interest.I will admit, not deep sleeping for days, my memory is on fire.The opposite happens.I get a wave of memories and emotions.Desturbingly so often that life stops from my lack of coping skills,still.I try and it becomes repetitive each time.im going backwards,and watching from inside, again.Everytime gets longer instead of shorter somehow.
I am numb,
Thunderstruck, great word.
I do not find humor in my situation to warrant what I have had to deal with.Forcing obstacles and issues, is not genuinely giving the person growth or life.I am sinicle,jaded and hurt beyond facing them, any of them.I wanted to trust that space but I was not given the opportunity.it was a sympathetic gesture,a test,a bigger plan or I don't understand.I thought it was something different and the feelings around the space, became more isolated than a place I needed.No one came, no one.And that hurt.Associating any hurt within a space effects me, beyond tolerance.It is not a lack of coping skills, It is by choice.I have never had these panic attacks to the point of body reactions.The space is soaked, ruined, not mine.

I have a terrible memory.I always have.I am unable to retrieve when I try, retaining,a major issue but rather scattered by interest.I will admit, not deep sleeping for days, my memory is on fire.The opposite happens.I get a wave of memories and emotions.Desturbingly so often that life stops from my lack of coping skills,still.I try and it becomes repetitive each time.im going backwards,and watching from inside, again.Everytime gets longer instead of shorter somehow.
I am numb,
Thunderstruck, great word.
I do not find humor in my situation to warrant what I have had to deal with.Forcing obstacles and issues, is not genuinely giving the person growth or life.I am sinicle,jaded and hurt beyond facing them, any of them.I wanted to trust that space but I was not given the opportunity.it was a sympathetic gesture,a test,a bigger plan or I don't understand.I thought it was something different and the feelings around the space, became more isolated than a place I needed.No one came, no one.And that hurt.Associating any hurt within a space effects me, beyond tolerance.It is not a lack of coping skills, It is by choice.I have never had these panic attacks to the point of body reactions.The space is soaked, ruined, not mine.

I no longer enjoy https://holidays.I am jaded, bruised and wallowing in the lack of https://family.I lost everything,over a period of five years and at the same time I'm leaving behind,all I knew of https://myself.I understand it is growing and a part of https://life.This came after a TBI and isolation. I did not expect it to be lived https://alone.My spouse,hates me to the point of dismissal and https://resentment.My relationships were shallow and forced,with others And I recently saw how orchestrated they https://were.I have not felt an organic genuine spark with anyone,in too https://long.I do not know how to rebuild or retain https://relationships.I know this https://now.Recognizing it took a year and by then, those relationships, suffered. I can take accountability for my part and move forward without rehashing the pain onto others. I wish,he would be honest and transparent to how he has played a part in our https://problems.I cannot believe he has done this to https://us.I know he states the same about what I have done I want him happy with himself,for https://once.For once, be present, be vulnerable and https://honest.I can not keep silent to save https://myself.Time isn't going to change our https://issues.The person willing to save themselves will be the one who sees https://it.Why I, have to keep being the one,who points the obvious? I will be the one, this time,who stops, pointing out the flaws.